hungshe

2009-09-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but i just wanna cry real bad. -31August2009

2009-08-23T01:59:00.000-07:00

Okay, that's it people !!
I OFFICIALLY CLOSE DOWN MY BLOG FROM NOW ONWARDS -.-
Hear that?! Hahah so start unlinking me :]
Wheeeeeee~~ Haha jsut can't be bothered to blogging now :/
Haha but i ain't deleting it,
cause it just has too much memories left in it..
This blog has been open since last ear may so yeah. Goodbye :D

I'm done with the things i've got :]

2009-08-20T06:00:00.000-07:00

Thoughts left behind.

Thursday20August2009

Lazy to blog about what's been going on.. soo..
i'm just posting about somethings that i really want to say.

I know your paranoid, you're changing into the better.
Compared to the past few times, i'm proud now that you understand.
But still somethings tend to bug me, i really want to talk to you.
But i won't even know if you're listening to me or not.
Because now you, what ever problems you just say "i don't care".
Every single time you say that, my mind's always wandering.
What happened to the girl i know.
And i seriously feel like screaming at you to wake up and look at yourself.
I know i've always been there for you, but what would you do?
If the closest people you knew ain't there to help you.
Solve it yourself? Or solving it by making it worse.
i'm not trying to say as if you suck at solving.
But you also have to think of the other party's mindset and personal thinking.
And i don't want you to have this mindset that
"Oh everybody hates me, i don't care.
As long as my friends are there for me its okay."
Well my dear, everything doesn't just stop there.
You have to do things yourself, actions speak louder than words.
Every decision and doing is what made everything happen in the first place.
Maybe you think i suck for sayin all these shit.
But think about it awhile.
I ain't mad, i just don't know how to help anymore.

My heart is just too soft for the people i really care about.
People tend to say i'm a good friend, what do they know? Haha
Even i think as a friend i'm over protective to what i do.
And i know i suck for that, haha who am i kidding..
I suck for so many things and i wonder why people don't hate me for it.
Gosh, i'm happy i really am. But sometimes i felt as if i was crushed.
But why? I don't know.. I don't feel as lonely as before.
But still at the same time, i still felt that i was alone.
Gosh what am i thinking again.
Haha, I have daryl, cheng, xing, celine, shad and yongxuan.
They are always there for me when i need a listening ear.
They make me laugh every single day, and i love it.
I've never felt happier for the past few days.
Honestly i'm happy with what i've got now,
just that why does this feeling keep coming?
Paranoid. And i don't intend to do anything about it :]

2009-08-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

Baby, you're really always there for me.

Saturday15August2009

Hey people!! i'm finally back blogging!! :D
Its been more than 3 weeks okay?
Lol, but seriously, i fucking hate my blog.
There's some kuku a-hole thing that's making this happen -.-

Haha alright, today went to mbs late..
When i was on the way there, had a change of plans.
Went to xing's house first, cheng eventually came and left to mbs at 10plus.
After practice went to xing's house with cheng for lunch :D
Answer is obvious.. Haha maggie!! :D Lol.

At about 1.45 left and took 21 to ehub :]
Had outing with baby, yongxuan, woonling, dick,
jiong hong,daoyi, wilson, shi hsiang and edvin
Lol but seriously today was cracked up super funny!! xD
Met baby at urban males and went to meet up with the others :D

Had no choice but to buy the 5.40 ticket because 7/10 were all still hungry :x
Went to subway -.- and then slacked around :]
Saw lebrone and bryan playing jubeat z.z
While walking around in downtown,
dick even got to make it own cotton candy.
And it looked like a umbrella when it was meant to be round!!
Gosh it was really hilarious :]
Okay then we went off to watch "Where got ghost?!"
Lol the show is kinda boring honestly :/

Movie ended and it was about 8.30.
And WOAH, all of them escorted me home ;]
Haha reached home at about 9.
Freakishly happy today although i didn't show much of any emotions.

Baby, i promise you.

2009-08-03T06:45:00.000-07:00

Hey readers, sorry for the short notice and stuff.
I'm clossing down my blog for now.
I have no time, no mood and lazyt o blog D:
I know, sorry~ Haha plus blogger ain't back to normal yet. Fuck it.
Will so called "MIA" for the time being in blogger.
So please... don't unlink me yet.
I WILL BE BACK!! Well soon enough xP

2009-07-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

Well can't be bothered to blog honestly..
In addition, stupid blogger is still not fixed D: Fuck it sial. D':

Escape the Fate; Something: Nice song :DDD

So now you're running
it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else

You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
we've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait for ever
Yes I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant
Something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else

2009-07-26T01:17:00.000-07:00

Sunday26July2009

Gosh my computer sucks!! D:
There's "error on page" when i post, fuck it -.-
Currently for the time being i still can't blog properly D:

Well for the past few days, things been suckish ]:
Can't eat or sleep properly.
When i say can't means that one day its maybe only half a meal -.-
And only 4hours of sleep. Sigh, my mind's pretty messed up.

Well doing nothing much also. Lazy to blog about it.
But i definitely want to post about yesterday :D
Haha woke up at 7.30 and headed to MBS!! :D
Reached there at about 9plus, cause i missed my bus D:
But well, got to play 2songs with them.
After band practice, cheng, xing, ling and i headed to aunty mel's house.

It was a advanced birthday celebration for our dear junior samuel :3
Had lunch at the hawker, yeah then cheng, ling and i helped make the water bombs.
Halfway doing, they started throwing here and there already.
So in the end, we all went down stairs to just play.
Well balloons of water turned out to be buckets of water xD

Practically the whole neighbourhood was lookin at us.
As in four of us, spencer and samuel's friends xD
Well, i "at least" got 10buckets of water poured over me.
Well it was fun, but i was the first to up, cause i wasn't feeling well.

Bathed and changed.
You know? Got changed into Shannon's old clothes xD
And it's still freaking hugeeeee :X
Then helped aunty mel with the food and preperations.
Stupid shannon also found out my weak point.
And now he keeps poking me, damn it -.-

After dinner, had cheesecake!! :D
Haha after that, went to play alil basketball with xing and shanon.
Well didn't play much, cause there was alot of people at the court ._.
Yeah then went cycling.. Until 9, ling's dad fetch 3of us home :]
Reached home at 9.20..

2009-07-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

Fuck it sial, blogger is making things difficult for me. Roar, blogger.. go and die.
Oh well, then i shall post ASAP when my blog is alright :D

2009-07-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

Never felt so helpless.

Tuesday21July2009

Today, was eff-ing tired D:
Slept through chemistry even if i didn't want to.
English, teacher was absent. Nothing happened but chit chat :}
Recessed with celine, kai and xing.

Maths got back test paper, 9/15.
Careless mistake, or would have gotten 10.
Well only four people passed in my group.
Daryl, Bryan, Taufik and me ._. I know, woah.
Chinese, slept half of the lesson.
Rest of the lesson was watching video again.
Bio, did worksheet and was chatting with Aisha all they way, lol :D

After school, headed home. Reached home at 2.20.
Headed to Mount E at 2.45 for dental appointment :]
Hehe changed it to black and white alternate :D
It's checkered now. Cool huh?
Yeah after that, headed to katong sc for tuition at Mr Fong's.
Finish tution at 7, reached home at 7.30 :]

Well i never felt, well.. quite happy for the past few days :D
I've having company by smsing people practically the whole day. Haha.
It's been ages that this has happened to me.
Literally, i feel loved by people that i've never known so well :}
Thanks alot dues and dude-eds :D

Well nice hung she is gone.
Honestly, inside me i feel that everybody is giving me hell.
I'm just speechless to anyone to their says.
Different problems, stories. What should i do now.
Gosh i can't believe i want to even slap my friends.
Like helping out is pointless.

Follow what your heart and mind wants most.

2009-07-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

If this could happen to you.

Monday20July2009

Today, was pretty much fucked up.
Will not go into details but yeah -.-
Why bother telling me when you don't care.

You don't have that power to tell me what to not do or do.
Oh well, but thank god band practice was cancelled last minute.
So went home straight after school :D
Freaking tired, slept for only 2hours last night. Thanks to art z.z
Stopping here.

I know i was being stupid,

but you ain't got no fucking rights to judge me.

2009-07-19T04:31:00.002-07:00

Not at all.

Saturday19July2009

Okay, although it's 7.30.. I rather post now than later.
By then, at 11plus will be freaking busy with art and lazy.
Yeah, i feel very messed up all of a sudden.
Like i've let down my friends and family. The ones who cares for me.
I might be laughing like crazy everytime, for the fact that
i would really want to be alone for awhile to think things through.
Oh well, i'll get over it someday. ]:

Yesterday, went off to bedok and met-up with celine and kai.
Did'nt do much, but it was fun :D
It's just too funny to think about the things they do xD
Laughing hard can cause serious damage to our body. Lol.
Yeah, reached home at about 7.30.

Soon after, went off to some place near botanic gardens.
Had dinner at this korean BBQ restaurant :D
The food was just eff-ing fantastic. But the price was even shocking.
For four people and the bill was 300plus bucks.
I know, well my dad won't flip :}

Was damn hungry at that moment,
cause the whole day i have not eaten
and we had dinner over there at 9. -.-
But what's unique was that it has beer ice cream there :D
And it's really niceeee~ :3 Well practically everything was nice there.
After that went home of course, reached home at 11.30 :3

Today, woke up at 12.15 and watched tv.
Until 2, cheng called and said she wanted to make her way here.
So she did, she reached at about 2.40.
3plus, went off to nearby cold storage to buy some snacks.
Reached back home and ate alot of junk.
Haha, for the whole day we were drama-ing like crazy xD
The best part was that i made her laugh so bad.
Cheng had rootbeer coming out of her nostrils!! xDDD
Haha yeah, it made me laugh so bad i laughed lying on the floor :X
At 6.40plus, waited with her for her bus to come :}

Today, found out alot of things ]:
Just don't really want to talk about it.
But just hinting that 'someone' ~~blocked~~deleted me from msn.
Fuck it, like wtfuck did i even to do you?
You know? I don't even know why i bother to care.
Do you know how sucky this feels? You don't right?
Well you should.. I really just feel like giving one punch.
But even i think after that punch,
you'll remain as heartless as you are now.

My everything means nothing to you now.

2009-07-17T10:30:00.000-07:00

Live life from the hard rock.

Friday17July2009

Wtfuck, when i reached class today.
Mdm Marlina was lecturing the class away ._.
Can't blame much of her, she's pregnant..

English, finished up yesterday's compre, chem not much new.
Pe, ran 2.4 again. It's my third time and once again..
I FAILED!! :D by a stinking minute z.z
Recess, bought ice lemon tea [pokka] and literally..
i drank it all the way down in a minute.
I know, celine and kai was freaking shocked.
What's scarier was that i bought another bottle xD

Had biology lesson next and Mdm Ng was nice enough
to show us a video on how to disect rats z.z
Was disgusted and freaked out yet interested. Lol.
During class period had this house competition in class.
Different houses sitting together to answer questions :3
Whooots~ Topaz second place :D

After school, went home and had lunch.
Computered and then napped till late 5.
Went to bathe and dolled up.
Used computer for awhile and left.
Headed to dad's cousin's son's wedding :D
I know, you'll get it soon enough xD

For some reason, it was fun even though not much people were there.
My cousin, hung sheng was there to entertain me through out.
Even though he is like 30 and getting married next year.
He's my closest cousin yet :D Crapped together in the wedding xD
Yeah, got to bring home 9 balloons and they float!! xDD
Anyway, reached home at 11.30.
Will upload photos tomorrow, lazy now.

I then realise it was exactly 3months ago,

you told me the most hurtful words of all.

2009-07-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

Perhaps, him.

Thursday16July2009

Okay, i seriously don't want to blog z.z
See? I'm just blogging recently for the sake of my constant readers :D
How nice can i be, lol. :X
But yeah, sometimes i wander why am i so easy going D:
Why do i forgive and forget so easily..
I guess i just don't really care about things so much.

Okay, back to business. Today.. was almost late again.
Reached school just before flag raising started :D
Saw Nabilah at the staircase, walked to our classes together.
Okay, english did comprehension.
Chinese, went through corrections for common test.
And oh yeah, a new amazing thing.
My chinese was one mark away from a distinction -.-
34/50!!. Sweet right~ Haha.
Yeah then slept through out.

Recess, went to look for Mdm Ng and finish up bio.
Still had time to look for clique after that.
Played this tug'o'war in someone's iphone.
And we all played like we were all crazy xD
We played the game until we could pant, power right? xD
Laughed all the way back to class, had chem and nothing new.
Class test during social studies.
Continued with quadratic equations during math.

School ended, had lunch with xingying.
Had malay fried rice, and it was freaking spicy.
Spicier than usual, even now my stomache still burns ]:
At about 2.30 left school and headed to Katong for tution.
20minutes late this time, did school work there.
And its still not finished now -.-

Screw the last question, don't know what the hell i have to do.
I ask people, they just tell me "find y what? easy.."
Lol, obviously i know have to find y luh, just don't know how to do mah.
Aiyo, okay forget it. Tomorrow go school ask classmates.
Bused home after tuition, reached home at 5.50 :D

I hate you and really want to let go, but it still hard.

2009-07-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

I can't say if i really am.

Wednesday15July2009

Oh gah, honestly i'm lazy to post..
Feel like MIA-ing in my blog for awhile.
Moodswing are eff-ing horrible the past couple days D:
Sad, i really don't know how to cope with it.
Tired, seriously am. As in mentally tired.
Classmates even thought i was under stress or something xD
Cause i just look really hagard, eyebagggggs xD Lol.

Actually i'm just suffering from headache that just can't go away D:
I blame maths and the lack of sleep.
For the past 3 days in 72hours. I only slept for like 10hours... z.z
I know?! Crazy are'nt i?

Yesterday, school was just normal. Crazy as ever.
I can't remember much cause i'm kinda tired.
But the funniest was maths xD At maths room,
Bryan and Kok How were playing with toilet paper.
Bryan was mummiefying the visual-liser.
Kok how threw a long stretch of toilet paper at the fan.
And the fan went like this xD TADAAA~~
Hahahahahahahah xD Toilet paper, see carefully.. bryan is wrapping it up.

After school, stayed back till 2.10. Headed to Katong for tution.
I was almost on time :D Like finally it's been a long time that
i'm at least near on time ^^ Clap clap for me.
Yeah after tution came the bloody headache.
Stupid formula of quadratic equations.
For the bloody day was just formula, formula -.- Dead.
Went home after that, reached home at 6plus.

Today, was almost late for school :/
and was almost caught in the rain D': But lucky of course :D
Well today ain't much to blog about until school ended.
After school lunched with xing and nelson.
I really had nothing to do, so went to maths room with xing and nel.
For 3N1's maths remedial, i know like why the hell am i over there?
But yeah, or else i will be alone for a longggg time ..
Over there, just chatted with nelson and listen to music.

At 3.15 headed down for band, nel companied me there.
When i got to the band room, it was pathetic..
There were only 5 people that waited/outside -.-
What's funnier was that we were all sec 3s.
It's funny yet pathetic, and i'm really not in the mood
of going back to practice. At last, everybody settled down at 4.30.
When band was suppose to start at 3.30 -.-"
Yeah, dozing off during band..
Ended at 6.40, father came to fetch.
Had dinner at nearby hawker then went home.
Reached home at 7.50 :D

I've always wanted to know what would happen if i just die..

about 2days ago :}

2009-07-13T08:28:00.000-07:00

Thinkin' evil lately.

Monday13July2009

Today ain't nothing much interesting :]
Let's type today's post in point form!! :D

• Schooling.
• Crapped like hell during recess again :3
• Slacked at 110 for awhile with Celine and Kai.
• They came over to my place.
•They were so easily aggitated by dash -.-
• Entertained them till like crazy, literally.
just ask the laughing device See Celine xD
yeah and talked matters.
• Sent them to bus stop at about late 5.
• Went home and watch "The day after tomorrow" at channel 5.
It scared the hell out of me again D': So sad..

Oh yeah and one super important point..
My computer is fixed man!! Like finally, haha.
It's really been a long time :3
Just downloaded many many songs, hehe.
Currently looking for this song ]:
David Archuleta- Don't let the music stop.

You showed me something that I couldn't see.

2009-07-12T02:00:00.000-07:00

One word, lol :D

Sunday12July2009

Woke up because father disturbed me to go out to have brunch T.T
Yeap, woke up at twelve and left at 12.40.
Went to eunos to have brunch, after that came home and watch tv :D
It's like 5, so maybe going out again or i'm staying at home to do art :D
Or teacher is gonna freak out again z.z

Regrets are the worst things to experience in life.

People that got spam by this dog "-".
Yeah, just fuck care luh. They have no lives.
Thats why they were reincarnated into dogs :}

Readers: Don't bother entertaining that pathetic dog.
Like said, we can't teach old dogs new tricks.
I bet, after he reads this there's gonna be endless hell of spams.
But what the heck, i love degrading their little weak minds :D

Anyway, to spammer :D
Haha, don't you get it? You are nothing.
No one gives a damn to to you.
And your spaming skill are the lousiest :3
You see? I have rights to comment your petty thoughts too right?
You little pathetic dog :D i fuck care you liao lah xD
And yeah, i'm taking whatever you said as a joke.
So HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH :D I'm laughing my ass off :3

2009-07-11T11:54:00.000-07:00

Past is past.

Saturday11July2009

Was suppose to leave the house at 12.15 and meet up with cheng.
But instead i woke up at that time by cheng's message xD
And she got up late too, lol.
In the end, rushed and bused to 637, went up to her house.
What's really nice, was that when i saw cheng :D
She was sooooo pretty man, for the first time yeah. She's really pretty :X
Yes cheng :D I'm making you blush and flattered xD

Anyway, took 15 and headed down to parkway.
Wanted to buy apple shruddle, but when we got there..
We suddenly did'nt felt like going ECP no more xD Lazy~
And we never got to find the stupid apple shruddle -.-
So we walked around, window shopped. Had ice cream :D
Hehe, admit it yo! Strawberry from Anderson's ROCK.

At 6, walked to katong and took 10 to my house.
Cheng stayed over at my place till 7.
Walked her to bus stop and byebye.
When i got home, watched alil tv and
went out to have dinner back at katong again -.-
And there was this fucked up rain, damn it.
So reached home at about 9.40 like that :D

Well i'm not here for your entetainment.

Well here are photos for the day :D Enjoy.

i love these two best :D

2009-07-10T09:01:00.000-07:00

I don't care.

Friday10July2009

I don't know why, but i feel better even
every single cell in my body is full of hate and anger.
Okay whatever, english did essay writing again and
damn it i forgot to put it in teacher's locker D:
Now she's gonna give me a zero, cries.

Chemistry was full of crap talk, i seriously don't get her.
She tells us to pity the troublemakers and if we laugh,
that mean to her we are one of them because they entertained us.
And she said if we said that she told us to look down on them.
We will so called get it from her-.- No different form a threat right?
What's the difference in pity and looking down at them? Oh well.

Had PE after that, retest 2.4. At my 3rd round zaid KO-ed onto the floor.
he's just a poor sap cause everybody left him there
after just asking "are you okay?". Haha so at last, i accompanied him
till someone came for zaid's rescue.

So after knowing my timing after 3rd round i started walking all the way cause
finishing the 3rd round was almost the timing to pass -.-
And sad my asthma almost hit me, i ran till my face is pale.
My face was totally numb after running and stuff.

Recesed with xingying, heecheng, celine, kai, shad, nab and janelle :}
Had bio and then CME :D Well not much there ..
Went home straight after school, and i when i got home..
I was wet, literally. Because there was this heavy rain -.- fuck it.
Reached home at like 1.20 anyway :D

YAY! Going to ECP with seah cheng tomorrow to vent our anger and hatred.
Plus, it's been a really long time since i went there like march?
Wanted to go MBS, but ex members ain't allowed to enter the school due to H1N1.
Damn, so yeah, yay ECP!! :D

Oh yeah!! Movieeeeeeeees!! i wana watch them sooooooo much. D:
-UP; Athough i watched i on net i really wanna watch it in cinema again :D
-Harry Potter and the half blood prince.
- I love you man.

Well duh i freaking pissed about things now, but i'm used to all these crap.
I'm okay with everything at start but one by one the things i hear..
It was necessary to hate, cause when i realise i did NOTHING.
Like seriously D: And he just hates me for no hell reason.
You know? From what i've heard he's been bitching about me.
So yeah? Now you should know why i would hate so baddd.
So matter how serious my friends were to him he just took it as a joke.
Like what the hell how old is he? What's wrong with him?
He still has this intention to joke around with all those crap.
I would just kick his shin to wake him up even if he hates me.
It could work :} But wtfuck, i don't even want to see him now.
Like even if he is living or dead it would'nt concern me :/
Well friends always tell that he's a hopeless case to deal with.
Thats what everybody did when he was sec 1.
But he still ended up changing right? All i know is that,
yeah yx was right.. I am wasting my time on this idoitic guy.

Without you, i'm seeing myself so differently now.

2009-07-09T04:31:00.000-07:00

Hell with it.

Thursday09July2009

Yes, i'm still in a bad mood. You trigger me andyou'll know :]
I'll get pissed off easily now D: Sad.
Anyway, school today was fine :] But just bazaar that was eff-ing tired.
Although i slept at 1.30 last night but usually i would still survive.
Also, i napped yesterday evening when i got home -.- Weird.

English, i just kept on dozing off.
Chinese? Thank god Mr Fun ain't around till 9.45 xD
Class started at 9 and he had something on.
So during that 45minutes i practically just slept throughout.
I felt so much better after that :D

Recessed with celine, shad and nabilah.
Had chem and shaifah was not in the house :D YAY!!
Mr teo took over and the class was in havoc.
Yeap, social studies next and then maths :]
After school went to canteen slack with celine, xingying and nelson.

2.10-15 like that went off with celine.
Celine accompanied me and slacked at 110 while waiting for bus.
Thanks anyway :D Reached KatongSC at like 3.15.
Had tuition till 5, da bao dinner and went home.
Reached home at late 5-6 :D

Lol how stupid do you think i am.
Now that i know everything i can seriously say;
Fuck you and how good would it feel if i would to get
a chance to say it out loud and right infront of you.
You suck. I freaking ~~dislike~~ HATE you, your true colours finally came out.
Thanks soooo much for wasting 1year of my time just being with you.
You mean nothing to me now.
Clarence Toh, i got over you. :DD

I wish i won't have to ever see you again,

even in the next life.

Taylor Swift; You're not sorry.

All this time I was wasting

Hoping you would come around

I've been giving out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long

Baby but I figured you out

And you're thinking we'll be fine again,

But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did - before

You're not sorry, no no ohh

Looking so innocent,

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did - before

You're not sorry, no no, ohh

You're not sorry no no ohh

You had me falling for you honey

And it never would've gone away, no

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did - before

You're not sorry, no no ohh

2009-07-08T00:14:00.000-07:00

Mad and just hurt.

Wednesday08July2009

Yeah, i'm soooo in a bad mood now.
I could just scream infront of you if you want.
I'm just gonna get thorugh with the day..

Common test; exposition writing.
Young people should respect the elder. Do you agree?
Well i just wrote both points. Negative and positive points of view.
Geography next, about development.. Not much to talk about here.
Art, stayed outside because i did not do homework.
Recessed with xingying, celine, shad and kai :]
Maths.. completing square again. And finally caught some balls xD
Bio, dots i was about rot in that stupid lab.
English then mother tongue, went straight home after school.
Reached home at 2.10 i think..

I was hoping for so long. At last i gave up and let go.
But i said before i won't let the matter rest till i get the truth.
And you know i got the truth, she only said one point.
And i got pissed yet hurt, she said there were still some other things..
Since you did'nt like it, why did'nt you just fucking tell me?
You treated me like a fool, seriously i'm just mad at myself.
Really, i ain't foolish. I was STUPID ENOUGH to believe the things you said.
Oh no, talking to me is a crime -.- You said did't dare to talk to me.
You have no balls right? You're the one who ended this.
I hate you, I loathe you, I despise you.
And i won't take back what i said. You suck.
What i've been going through, it made me realise that
all the promises you made were all lies.
You seriously acted like being with me was hell.
Have you even noticed the way you reacted when we parted?
Do you remember? Can i have a single cheeseburger? Cause i'm SINGLE!!
Fuck you lah, wait one more.
At the corridor, you yelled out loud you were single -.-
I've heard alot more, and i still had the heart to bare with it and forgive you.
I just front like "Oh okay" each time you let me down.
But really what i could'nt believe was that,
you did'nt tell me the things that you should have..
You should know, i will change for the sake of someone i love.
I doubt you never felt/knew how hurt i was.
And the fact that i think you won't even care what i just said.
But yeah if you don't know me at this point.
Then i highly doubt you ever will.
Well now i don't ever want to talk to you.
Clarence Toh, i won't regret sayin this.

You're not sorry, neither am i.

2009-07-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

Um?

Tuesday07July2009

Let's make it short, sweet and simple :D
School was sort of a bore but still i survived cause i was freaking tired.
Chemistry, continued with our previous lesson.
English wrote and exposition essay on maid abuse.-.-
Recess, shad darling chopped me on the arm with my birthday :D
I bet she's aiming for my face tomorrow.
Yeah, anyway.. Recessed with Cheng, celine, shad, nabila.
After that had maths at maths room, i so called K.O.ed during lesson.
Was eff-ing tired D; Chinese lesson was held at 3N1 cause
Chee Siong broke/fractured his ankle/foot.
For now, 3N1 is on the first floor again xD
Had bio next, after that stayed back with sikei, jess and shimian.
Soon at about 2.20 left for tuition, reached at 3.30.
Half an hour late xD Well yeah, tuitioned till 5.
Dad fetch me home, reached home at 5.30plus.

Yeah, it really looks as if that

1year1month26days meant nothing to you.

2009-07-06T10:46:00.000-07:00

Numb..

Monday06July2009

Yeah, stayed at home the whole day really, till at night.
Last night had to help my sis finish her art work till 4plus in the morning.
Today morning, 11 woke up and continued to help her.
Still tired now and it's currently 1.50am z.z I think i can faint now.

Anw, got my new phone :D Haha went to parkway just now with mummy.
Got this phone, TADA~ ;

Yeap, that's my new wondeful pretty and stylo phone xP
But yeah went there quite late,
so went back home around 10plus or something :]
Well that's all :D

Sometimes, i don't even know what i feel.

2009-07-05T08:31:00.000-07:00

There ain't nothing that I can do.

Sunday05July2009

Woke up at about 1, seriously tired.
Anyway, today was sort of peaceful.
Because i'm phoneless for the day :D YAY!
Yeah but did nothing much till 6.30,
went to parkway with family for dinner.
Had dinner at Jack's place, nothing much to eleborate..
The food was so so, thats all.
Later on, went to M1 to check out some new phones :D
And guess what? Gonna get one tomorrow, sony ericsson; C905.
Camera phone, 8.1 mega pixal!! :D Good huh?
Yeah after that headed home, reached home at maybe 10? Can't remember.

The cuts so deep, it hurts down to my soul.

Nice song i recently found :3 Slow goodbye - Lesley Roy

I can read the lines on your face and they're telling me

Everything I already know, yeah

I hold you in my arms but your light-years away from me

Slowly sinking under alone, yeah

So I act cool on the outside

But it's eating me alive

Cause when it comes to you there's nothing I can do

I can't make you love me when you don't

I see it in your eyes all the compromise

I can't take another second slow goodbye

Sitting in the park after dark

Smoking cigarettes, biting on the black of my nails

Cause all I ever wanted was what you took away from me

Trying to make it right but it's too late

I'm a hopeless case on the inside

And it's eating me alive

Cause when it comes to you there's nothing I can do

I can't make you love me when you don't

I see it in your eyes all the compromise

I can't take another second slow goodbye

I die a million times every time when you look me in the eye

Die Cause I've heard it all before

The same game going around and around

But I still end up with nothing but hurting

Cause when it comes to you there's nothing I can do

I can't make you love me when you don't

I see it in your eyes all the compromise

I can't take another second slow goodbye

No, there's nothing I can do

I can't make you love me when you don't

I see it in your eyes all the compromise

I can't take another second slow goodbye..

2009-07-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

Tired.

Saturday04July2009

Woke up at late 11, was eff-ing tired.
Had noodles watch tv till i slept again until 2. z.z See, told you i was tired xD
Yeah computered till late 2, cheng called and ask whether i can come out.
So in the met her at Marina Square; startbucks :3
Reached there about 4, and we shared caramel frap, tall.
Cause she does'nt drink Java Chip D:

Haha, at Pizzahut was free flow of pepsi.
At Starbucks was free flow of whip cream xD
It was freaking funny when cheng brought back a full cup of cream, haha.
We practically slacked there for an hour, so we window shopped.
At about 6, we trained back to Eunos to have a quick bite of sushi :3
Saw cheng's NYW friend, melvin i think :] Yeah a 7, bused to 637.
She accompannied me to wait for my bus to come, thanks.
Reached home at 8plus.
Yeah today, craped alot and talked alot :D Fun.

Haha my phone is seriously gone case, screen blackout since i got home xD
No phone for now, so yay no one can contact me.
Well unless you know my house number :]
bt still getting new phone real soon, but don't which D: Sad.
Anyway, having horrifying moodswings lately, beware and sorry.

So fed up with my thoughts of you.

Like my dear friend i too feel like this song :/
I stay in love - Maria Carey

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love
I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall

How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone

Now go I know
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby I stay in love with you

We said let goBut I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love Oh, I stay in love.

2009-07-03T08:59:00.000-07:00

Feeling so lost in heart.

Friday03July2009

Wanted to post yesterday, but did'nt get the chance to use it.
So um yesterday, lessons were as usual.
After school stayed back with yao xing had lunch and left at 2.30.
She accompanied me to Katong and i went to tution :D Thanks.
Chatted up with leb while waiting for bus. Was half an hour late though..
Yeah it's been 6-7 weeks since i went tution. :D
I miss Mr Fong~ XD Hehe and sweetie, fat cat :3
After tution was 5, dad fetch me home.
Bought dinner home and reached home at 5.40.

For today.. Oh, today was Be Yourself Day :D
Wore home clothes to school today, hehe..
Saw some really pretty people too :D
Yeah, but still lessons were as usual, no performance or anything.
But during class period, had some game called 'guess the monkey'.
Funny yet boring, well for me. I don't take part.
After school, headed home. Reached home at 1.

I'm feelings are lost in mind, i don't know what am i doing already.
I just don't know what to do all of a sudden.
having a craving of going ECP though, yeah..
It started feeling like this since this morning.
Moodswings, also tend to not wan to go home nor school.
Thats why i just leave school immediately nowadays.
But after schoo there's no way to go but home.
I wanna be alone sometimes and take a little breather.

It's you again, i see. Just not use to it i guess..

2009-07-01T03:56:00.000-07:00

It all turns out to be this.

Wednesdayo1July2009

Hey readers, i'm back blogging :} Sorry not blogging last night, lazy.
Yeah nothing interesting to post about at all.
After school, will just head home straight.
Just yesterday only slacked with celine and kai at 110 for awhile.

I've been thinking lately, well yeah i'm seriously giving up everything
even of what i think of him. Every pinned down hope, just got torn away.
For now, he just reminds me of that time when i hate him because
he's a jerk -.- Like everything between us is back to square one.
Since it's already like this, why bother? I see that he does'nt.
Yeah, it hurts it really does, but what other choice do i have?
Currently we just walk pass each other like we don't even exist.
He's not bunny toh to me now, like the old regular dude that i despise truely.
Yeah i suck for sayin all these shit but there's no point right?
I was dumb enough to believe what he said
and so what if i can't bear to let it go just yet.
No one would care, yeah i regretted and it feels terrible at times.
Espcially just before i go to sleep, it tends to just bug me to point
that i can't sleep for the night. Oh blah, all i say to myself is 'get over it already'.

You give false hope again and again, tired.

2009-06-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

Just screwed.

Monday29June2009

Hey readers :} Sincerely sorry for not posting regulary.
First, not in the mood to blog.
Second, nothing to blog about.
Third, not much eaders for the past week i guess.
I mean look at my tagboard? It's bloody pathetic -.-

So? I should start posting i guess, um yeah..
Reached school, well backgate was bloody locked z.z
So met-up with cheng and walked to school.
Went to class, assembly and stuff not much..
Lessons were as usual, had art. Slacked and listen to music all the way.

Recess, had teriyaki chicken :D Haha, we've gotta a new foodstall :3
Yeah, after recess had mothertongue, followed by social studies.
Slept throughout for SS, um then math :]
Last of all geography, but halfway went to dentist for checkup z.z
Practially today was a bore, nothing much to talk about.
After dentist trip, mother fetch me home.
Reached home at 2 and napped all the way to 7 xD

I doubt that you actually care.

2009-06-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

Promise makers are all suckers.

Haha will be posting about the past 3days :}
Alil tired and getting sick soon. z.z Oh well..

Wednesday24June2009

Let's see i woke up at about 2plus and i watch anime on youtube all day.
As in yeah, literally all day. i'm bored really am.
Watched till 3plus am and chatted on the phone with xing till 4plus.
Went to sleep at 4.30.. Haha and wow,
i still have practice early in the moring the next morning xD

Thursday25june2009

Band practice was as usual, boring as ever..
And cool, i managed to survive. Well a lil? :D Cause i woke up at 8 xD
But still was fucking tired z.z

After practice went to TM's pizzahut with cheng and shad for lunch.
Student meal, and that means FREE FLOW OF PEPSI :D
Haha, well but we only refilled 3times.
After eating was fucking full, headed to CS's toilet and slack.
Took some photos but not posting, next time.. when my com is fixed :D
Sorry readers but bear with me and for crying out loud tag man!! -.-
Anyway, after that went home reached home at 4.

Eventually i napped, till 8? haha tired you see.
At night started watching anime again, till 5.
But when i went to bed i could'nt sleep so at last at 5.40 plus then sleep z.z

Friday26june2009

Woke up at 1? Watched tv and then prepared..
3.40 left the house and met xingying, lingya, yongding, rayner and peiwen at eunos.
Trained to vivo, met leslie there.
Bought tickets to Ghosts of girlfriends past.
Slacked at he water place there, haha i don't how to describe honestly xP

At 6.20 went to catch the movie.
The movie is of course fine, second time watching anyway :]
After that had dinner at foodcourt. Went to water place again.
Celebrated ling's and peiwen's birthday :D
Happy belated birthday :DD Alot of photos but all with xing :}
Then slacked here till 11, all headed home..

Everyone except yongding and i alighted at eunos.
Yongding alighted at bedeok and me at tanah merah.
Met sis at bus-stop and went home. Reached home at 12.30 :D

Dissapointed, i knew this would happen.

2009-06-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

Not the same..

Tuesday23June2009

First a big birhday shoutout to lingya jie and mangting laogong :]
Happy Birthday :D
Ps: Ling, will celebrate with you on the outing :3

You what else? Fuck my luck -.-"
My computer seems to be out of order now, using dad's lappy once again z.z
Stupid desktop can't even show a single bloody thing.
Hais, oh well.. Yeah past few days have been the same thats why not posting regulary..
Sleeping at around 3to5am and waking up in the afternoon.
Seriously, waking up at 9 today was already hell for me today ]:

Cause they had to do somemore construction in my room, so had to wake up early..
In then i still went to sleep, i went to sleep on my brothers bed xD
Aku taboleh tahan!! I have to sleep D:
I know, ironic.. But yeah, thank god he's at school :}
It's like standard i wake up 12-2 in the afternoon, haha.
Oh well here's really not much to blog about, not in the mood anyway..

I would be speechless if i see you eye to eye..

2009-06-20T11:45:00.000-07:00

I've done my part, now it's just up to you..

Saturday20June2009

Woke up in the afternoon, at about 12plus?
Did'nt went out till 6.15.. -.-Was at home packing stuff :}
Yeah, walked to Tanah Merah and met yongding at Bedok..
Trained to Tanjong Pagar and walked to SCH; Singapore Confrence Hall :D
Reached there about 7.05, went to the hall and bought tickets.
Tickets to listen NYW; National Youth Winds :3
ps: cheng have been practicing with them :D
Then went in, took seats and yeah..
watched and listened to the concert all the way :D
Sadly, yao xing could'nt make it ]:

Had intervals after the 3rd piece, crapped with cheng and yongding.
Yeah after the 2nd bell of the interval rang, cheng had to go back to prepare :)
Concert ended around 10, waited for Ms Seah to finish packing and stuff.
Meanwhile talking with her mum :}
when she came out, we still had to wait for her to settle everything down.

Everything done was about 10.40 like that or something.
Trained to Bugis and had dinner with them :D
Weird though, at first yongding was super hungry..
But when we were at KFC, he only drank pepsi z.z
Guess he was just tired or something. He looks drunk, like seriously xD
Cause he got sunburn and he could barely open his eyes then.
But still, poor daddy :/

Finish eating at about 11.40. Yeah then we took train home.
Cheng alighted at eunos, yongding at bedok. Me as usual like duh xD
Reached home at about 12.15 i guess :}
Haha the concert is nice yo :D Hardly could hear any flaws..
Cheng was fantastic yeah? Her notes were clear and bouncy :D
And she looks super handsome :D She was so dashing, my nose almost bleed xD
Haha okay i just love her :P

3am. i so called talked to you,
and i was still feeling the same pain.

2009-06-19T08:14:00.000-07:00

Should I?

Friday19June2009

Um woke up because dad scolded me till i woke up -.-
I know ._. It's like what the hell even when i'm sleeping they also want to scold. Fuck it.
Mother and sister have a big fued.
Idoitic damn irritating have to hear both sides of the story T.T
Mother has seriously left the building,
she keep curse my sister "GO TO HELL". Like literally luh..
Like what the fuck.. My parents, unreasonable asses )':
For once i would just wanna change parents for a day..
Then they will see how braty other kids are D':
Walao which idiot parent says that lah! Wait, only my mum -.-"

Yeah, at 2.30 headed to mount E for dental appointment
and i changed the colour to SILVER!! :D
Nice, cause it does blend in with the metal of the braces :3
After appointment went to paragon and helped mother to buy cheese cake.
And bought Java chip from starbucks :D yeah headed home next of course.

Reached home and cleared and packed my staff.
At least half of it it cleared. :)
Then about 7.40 went to siglap to have dinner. Reached home at.. late 8.
You know? Currently having some short circuit like what the hell..
My sister just on one switch and all the lights off ._.
and they cannot be turned back on.
The weirdest part is my computer and aircon is still working :D
Cool right? Haha i must be lucky :}

Why do i have this funny feeling.. ):

2009-06-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

Action speaks louder than words yeah?
Thursday18june2009

Yeah, thats an overdued photo. Taken during my cousin's wedding :D
Pretty yeah my sis :3 Yeah i know she is..
Okay, while sleeping today morning was distured twice to pick up the darn phone.

First was, dad told me some teacher from school asked me to do a favor -.-

Well it's to tell the chinese pupils in

3N1 & 3N2 chinese students in wang jing's class to collect their files and workbook

anytime from today till tomorrow. But too bad :D

I told her i was in Mr fun's class xD So in the end, wasted my beauty sleep z.z

2nd was when my dental clinic called my house telephone

to check i'm going for tomorrow's appointment..

Irritating, but seriously i hate people disturbing while i'm sleeping.

But i still went back to sleep, woke up at 12.30 :)

Went down to living room with sis and had maggie for brunch.

Yeah, started to com all the way :D Until 4plus.

Stared to continue painting my room, again. FINALLY! It's done :]

Haha was watching the movie "UP" with sis online.

I rate it 4.5stars :D Recommended to watch and the grandpa is seriously cute.
Had dinner at nearby coffeshop and what the hell i painted till 1am xD
But at least my room colour is done :} Well thats all for now.

It's been two months now, and i still wander.

2009-06-17T10:31:00.000-07:00

The reason is you.

Wednesday17June2009

Gosh~ i love my photo :X
YAY YAY YAY!! :D My computer is back man :D
And what's better? It's in my room :} Woohoo~
I'm super satisfied with my room now :D
It's red, all furnitures are black. All i need now are some new curtains :3

Yesterday wanted to go jurong with sis and menfred
to watch monster vs aliens again. But did'nt went at last..
Cause, if i were to go out. I will not be able to go out with heecheng today! :D
So cheng you must be proud of me
for staying at home rotting by watching tv all day -.-"
Haha but last night? Got to webcam with my dear cheng :D
Visit her blog for the shots xD It's freaking funneh.

As for today, woke up at 9plus and headed to 637 at 10.30.
Took 94 and went to eunos to have sushi for lunch.
Trained to Paya Lebar and went to City Plaza ~
Shopped and window shopped. Loved alot of dresses and stuff
we did not have enough money D: Haha but i bought 2 tops :D

Haha nevermind :] I will go back and buy the clothes i love most :3
Anyway, after shopping was about 3 and walked to..
paya lebar singapore post's coffee bean and waited for xing.
Waited, and we went hungry went to kfc to buy xD

Took 21 back to ubi and went to xingying's house slack.
Long time since 3 of us hung out :D Talked cork, alot of craps and laughters.
Thanks to me :X okay shutting up..
Yeah until 6 cheng and i left,
accompanied her home to get something and i left for home :}
Idoitic had to wait for 30plus mins for my bus to come.
Fuck it lah, waste my time z.z In the end, reached home at 7.

Helped dad with computer network for awhile later, changed.
And went to town for dinner :D Had sushi again ^^ Hehe.
Reached home at late 9 :P

Recently in friendster and everywhere, guys out of no where
just keep asking for my number and msn -.-
I have 3 words, GO AND DIE :}
I so do want to give and what do want to do about it.
Damn, do you know how annoying is it to see like these sentences everyday?
"Um can we be friends?" "Can i have your number? mine is ********"
"Can i have your msn" Walao, dudes? Shut it.
I don't care -.- and i don't wanna care. Get lost, it's irritating.

Yes, people i know :/ My skill of scolding people has deproved D:
Lost my stuff, must be the number of days not disturing people.
And the past few weeks from heartbreaking issues.
Guess even my temper had problems -.- Dang.
But one bright side is that? I make people laugh easy :3

Stupid yx trying to make me jealous x.x

He got new phone!! unlimited sms and 8gb!! WTF WTF WTFUCK!!

Why do get to come out during the weekdays?

2009-06-14T23:54:00.000-07:00

Changes.

Monday15June2009

Okay, it's like 3 in the afternoon and i'm like blogging -.-
At first wanted to blog last night or so called today morning 3am to blog.
But idoitic, there was no connection.
But wtf, chatted with the phone with xing till 4.30 am :3

For my weekend, let's see.. Oh like i said in my previous post
that i would be painting my room. And i am :D i'm painting !! Well not now -.-
But weird , the colour is not more to brown is more to red.
And the name of the colour is damn cool :D Spectrum red!! Stylo right? xP

Okay yeah i've painted my room for 12 hours with that colour on saturday but what the fuck..
Only painted half the room, yesterday painted another portion.
What went worse was hat there was not enough paint z.z WHY?!
Haha and yesterday went to tamp IKEA with parents and sis to buy stuff :D

Well i'm satisfied for now but i'm pissed for not even going out with friends yet.
It's like my holiday is not starting, AT ALL z.z I wasted 2weeks in school and at home.
School, is camp and band practice. At home? Clean.. Idoit.
Pactically half of my holiday is goneeeeeeee D':
And i still can't my computer back?! FUCK IT LAH!!

For how i've been feeling the past week has been sort of a whole lot better
when i thought it through while i was painting.
Cause yeah, i'm really tired of waiting.. Maybe waiting would be a regretful thing to do.
I mean the way he acts and the things i hear about him is not the guy i know anymore..
Instead is that kind of bastard i use to hate before i really knew him.

But on the other hand, sometimes he acts alil strange as if he was hiding something.
That is why i chose to wait, but i've waited quite long and i'm tired and really am.
And for that, i'm giving one last shot. By the end of july, if nothing happens..
I would really treat nothing as in nothing has ever come between us.
I swear to god i would just move on already z.z
Cause it really just hurts thinking about him.

If i were to choose you or him now, it would'nt him no more :}

2009-06-12T10:37:00.000-07:00

Friday12June2009

Okay, um.. My back is aching like shit z.z And i don't know why D;
It's like the nerve is being pressed on.
Its seriously sucks, i totally can't move how i want to.
It effing hurts like hell, iritating piece o shit T.T

Um let's see, yeap my computer is still not back yet..
Clean the first and second floor yesterday and today, its very tiring i guess.
Tomorrow, going to paint my room :D Wheeee! like finally xD
But what the fuck, i never got to go out like since the design camp.
It's not that people never ask me out.
It's just that i'm not allowed to go D':

Sad ain't it? Was supose to go out with DMMC today
and i was'nt allowed to go the last minute ]:
And my dad was bloody cranky yesterday.
Like we did nothing and he tries to find some stupid thing to scold -.-
Idk? All i can see that he's pissed off and he wants to rant the anger on us.
But still, like what the fuck?

Yeah, not much to blog about now, it's boring now a days.
I can't even go mbs tmr D: Sad,
but yay xingying and cheng would be helping out with the painting :3
I really don't have much to say so ending here :D

It's actually still amazing to know that

i still hug hat bear you gave me to sleep.

2009-06-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

Wednesday10June2009

Hey babes, miss me? Just doing some short post of what i have been doing.

My computer is still not back yet, so currently using dad's laptop.

And its fucking irritating -.- The keyboard it fucking flat therefore a lot of typos.

The worst is there is this static energy, and i keep getting shocked. -'-

Fuck it man,

Out of temptation and the chance of having this opportunity to use the internet..

I SHALL BLOG!! :D Okay, when did i last blogged? About a week or what? Forgot :/

Oh ya!! It was Tuesday!! So yeah continuing with thursday and friday.

And of course was still having that stupid camp z.z

But yay, went home early on friday

cause i had to go and prepare for my cousin's wedding.

And when i was on my way there i think i saw royce lol.

For the weekend i did nothing much but move the furniture in the house.

Clear stuff and on saturday, thats when my computer was taken away from me D:

Sunday almost the same thing.

Monday and Tuesday had design camp, and it was FUN FUN FUN!!! :D

I loveee it really. Really, when we get to use the computer to do work.

We are allowed to surf the internet but of course we have to finish our work :}

Also, when drawing/colouring our work we can go to the canteen without teacher's

permission to buy drinks if we are thirsty :D Cool right?

This is how nice Mr Muhammad can go to :D He's really a nice teacher actually :3

Yeap, it was suppose to be a stay over night camp. I wanted to,

when i realise i had no girlfriends who are staying over or what.

Throughout the camp was with Nelson, Shaiq and Zaid.

In camp we also dug out a lot of dirty secret :X But they are definitely funneh XD

Today, stayed at home doing my own things. It's stupid lah..

But don't blame me i really am pathetic for now D:

So have a kind heart to understand. Help me if you want..

I'm painting my room starting this weekend already yay :D

And tonight shall be he last night that i am sleeping with my sis.. AW D':

Lol, dramatic. Thank god having company from a friend now..

And the past few days and for the next few days.

He's really nice, if you know who you are then a big thanks :D

That's al that i'm saying. Will update again as soon as possible.

And upload all the photos i have taken :3

Remember that promise that you made?

The one where you said you'll never make me cry again.

I guess you just making me smile at that moment.

2009-06-07T05:04:00.000-07:00

MIA

House under renovation, no tv, no computer and no radio D':

Will update as soon as possible :]

I see you everynight in my dreams,

I still wander why.

2009-06-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

I wander.

I wander if you still think of us.

if you feel the same way like i do.

if you would go to my facebook again and again.

if you would come here and read whatever goes on .

if you could think once more.

Once more to be together again..

Baby, i really miss you.

I know, not blogging lately.
Really ain't in the mood of updating this piece of junk z.z
Haha there are so far a dozen of photos to upload again :D
House under renovation now :/ So kinda noisy for about the whole month to july.

Monday01June2009

Well ain't it fast? It's finally june :] Damn 5more month till i get another year older z.z
Um, yeah i practically stayed at home. Not much..
Evening went to katong to some shanghai restaurant to have dinner.

Tuesday02June2009

Woke up at 8 and late z.z Ended up i went to meet cheng at 9.40plus.
Yeah, then we walked to the so called new renovated MBS :D
Carrying cheng's B.sax back. Oh my tian, can die even when we cross the road.
Yeah, the band room is freaking large , green also and the school is pretty :D
Um, we did'nt see much of the school cause we ain't allowed to walk about the school D:

Helped out alittle, IT WAS really A LITTLE..
Because we spent most of the time talking and crapping instead.
Also helped them to buy chicken rice for lunch..

Soon at about 12.30, we left. Had our chicken rice in bus while we headed to ehub.
Supposingly to meet cheng's romeo z.z Oh my tian, at Pastamania
waited and waited, called and called continuously and still nothing.
So.. at 2.30 we went up and bought ticket to..

MONSTER VS ALIENS!! :D

Wahahahahahahahas~!! I love bob!! He's so damn fucking cuteeee.
I'm so guaranteed to go catch that film again :D
It's hilarious in almost every scene xD

Yeah after movie, went to toilet. Planned to go home and how shocked.
Saw leb waiting at pastamania's o_o
Chatted awhile, then we headed to loyang point to accomapany..
wait.. is "look" and lebrone neo munching away his fish and chips haha.
His frenchfries tempted me :X I got hungry.

But too bad gotta rush home, rushed him eating too.
Took bus 5 with cheng and leb and dropped off at changi hospital.
Changed to bus 10 and yeah saw bro in the bus.
Obviously walked home together, haha :] Reached home at 7.15? Forgot.
And yeah, wandering where's xingying? Haha she's at Bali :D
I miss her!! xD Have fun anyway yaoxing :3

Wednesday03June2009

Happy Birthday Teo Bing :]
Um, yeah i know.. Random :} Well i know not really close friends but yeah.
See? I'm such a nice person :DDD Okay gettin on.

Woke up late, again.. For about half an hour -.-
Rushed and left at 8, dad fetched me to bedok market.
bought the veggietarian food and he fetched me to school.

Band camp? Not much to eleborate, its like a usual day and comes and go :]
After band, stayed back and crapped with Cheng and Shad :D
Left at about 5.40, when supposingly to dismiss at 5 z.z
Reached home at 6. Bathed and went to katong to have dinner, again.
With parents and sis, hais, it's gonna be long holiday..

I'm hurt = I miss you.

Still having troubles deleting your messages,
Even if the message only has one word "okay"..

It just breaks my heart, because it will be gone forever.

Here are some photos from the past few days :D

Tada!! MBS's new band room :D

Left- Sis and me of course

Center- Cheng posing for me to make a candid shot xD

Right-House dry kitchen currently under renovation.

Sectionals

Left and center- shad and me

Right- Seak Jing yi AKA didi

We went high.. :}

2009-05-31T08:52:00.000-07:00

I dont' know if i should anymore.

Sunday31May2009

Hey readers :] I'm back posting, you know? Won't be posting everyday from now on.
I'm sick of tired of everything, i post because i feel like it only. Haha.
Now when i seriously think is that, more and more people are taking me for a fool.

They take me as a doll, thinking i have no feelings.
Well yeah i do, just that i'm not showing it out.
For the fact that, i've been bottling everything in.
Yes i hate crying alot, but i really want to cry. But i just can't.
You know how difficult that makes me feel?
More and more hypocrites are stepping in, to just piss me off.
When will they fucking know that when i'm not happy they will not be happy either?

Those pieces of shit thinks they are so gooooood at pissing me off?!
Then they are fucking wrong about it.
They will have to just bloody deal with the consequences dealing with me.
Like i've said many eff-ing times that i'm a nice person.
But not nice when "provoked". Which part of that still do not get?
I thought i would always say it clearly -.- Imbeciles -'-
Yah i'm just really not in a good mood really.
If just irritated abit, can be hell for you,
but other then that i'm fine like nothing happens.

Oh well, let's blog about my loseristic weekend :D
Um yesterday i practically stayed all day at home,
using the computer and wathcing tv!! How educational ^^
Then at 8plus went to katong astons to have dinner with dad.

Today, woke up at late 11 used computer all the way till 2 plus.
Went to city plaza with mummy and sister :D
For the first time she would actually buy the things we want!! YAY!!
Yeah for me bought 2dresses and 1 top.
At first i thought mummy bought another top for me. And she did'nt of course.
The worst is that was my favourite D': Heartache.
Well haha i don't care i will go back and huant for it again:3

Yeah, shopped all the way till 7plus went to Katong to have chicken rice family.
Dad and brother came late and we reached home at 9. :] Thats about it.
Damn yx, at malaysia.. He will be there until coming saturday -.-
Man, i wander who is gonna entertain me until 2 am xD

I intend to give up. Happy now?

2009-05-29T07:43:00.000-07:00

We once were.

Friday29May2009

Did not post last night due to parental issues.
Have not been doing well with them either.
All they do these few days is nag and scold, scold and nag.

For ain't no reaon, but because of my report book results.

My dad ain't happy at all D: I don't wanna talk about what happened last night.

Those who know? You better shut it :]

Yeah, my this time my dad has never demoralised me to this state, ever.

He made me cry for like the least one hour ._. Idiots -.-

Yesterday- School, i don't know? Just for no reason, it feels weird being school.

Had this funny feeling thats all ._. And during bio? Something happened.

I know, it may not be a big deal to others but yeah it definitely is for me.

Well, at first when he said that, i thought there was a little hope.

But the way you reacted made me feel stupid that

why did i even have my hopes up in the first place. D':

After school, headed to celine's house to celebrate her birthday.

Oh yeah that reminds me.. Happy Birthday to Celine dumbass and eddy!! :D

Hahah, her gan daddy is hilarious i tell ya :D

The 2nd eddy and the split image of eric [but chubbier] xD

Had alot of fun at first but ended up talking heart to heart with kai.

At 5, we left her house, kai accompany me to bus-stop.

Waited, bus came i went home and she headed home

Reached home at i don't know 5.30? i can't remember._.

Today, i was super/totally moodless in school.

I practically made celine worried for the whole day ._. sorry my dear.

Let's see today is the last day of school and throughout for today

was our sports carnival. Boring man, wanted to play captains ball actually.

but i really did'nt want to sweat in my uniform -.- It would really suck.

But the main thing that i'm sad was that, i did not get this chance

to take one good glance at him for just 5minutes from a far end D:

Man, come on it's like tha last day of school at least let me see him right?

I wander what will happen during the june holiday.

I wander what will happen after the june holiday ]:

Yeah but the most screwed up thing about today was that.

21bucks was stolen, celine? 50bucks -.-

Fuck that idoit that took it, i swear if i know who. He/she will damn it just face

the fucking consiquences. That person wants to get a beating or something -.-

I will scold that person until he/she will cry, begging for mercy i tell ya!!

I fucking heck care if that person got what gang or what.

I will strangle him, until his/her face turns purple!!

If he known better that i'm not in good temper lately.

I've just had it! People are just taking me for fools nowadays.

and IT'S BLOODY FUCKING IRRITATING!! IT'S JUST PISSING ME OFF!!

After school, went to tampines salon with xingying and heecheng.

Both of them, went to reborn their hair. Haha i went to cut bangs!!

And i look so bloody kuku now, wandering how will i look

when i attend my cousin's wedding next friday o_o

Yeah, we reached there at like 2plus and we can drag all the way to 5.

Cheng and i were rushing and we ended up cabbing back.

Cabbed to ubi and i took 45 back home. Reached home at 6.40 :D

I wander if you would miss me.

2009-05-27T05:57:00.000-07:00

I don't want to hate.

Wednesday27May2009

Um, starting the post by wishing ClarenceT. and T.WoonLing

a big and HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D May all your wishes come true.

Sorry have not been updating regularly, my internet connection is fucked up.

Monday- School, not much going on.

Tuesday- Also not much, went to some YOG thingy at dunno where.

Went home straight and napped for 5hours :D

Today- All the way for school today was movie, movieee, MOVIEEE!!

Man, it's freaking boring -.- After school, went to mama shop buy red bull,

cause i know i'm bound to fall asleep during band. And i almost did, AGAIN!

Yeah, headed back to school and lunched.

Slacked with Shad, Nabilah and Jacq until about 3.20.

Because Tan CC told us to go for band straight away and Fahmi was there.

Yeah, and sadly. My dear Jing Yi got transferred to Bass Clarinet D':

I don't why but i'm super sad about it, my poor little bro ]:

It feels like i've lost another companion D':

During break, got to chat with Yao Xing :D Like finally. Missed her alot really..

And for no reason, my moodswing returned.

Junior said my face totally change,

so called "hyper" turning into so called "EMO". Lol.

Aiya, don't wanna elaborate but yeah. Sad for all i know,

was dismissed about 6.45. Dad fetched me home, reached home at 7.10.

I never wanted to hate, but you're just making thing difficult.

Did this quiz on facebook and its amazingly accurate!!

Has a lot of ideas

Difficult to understand

Thinks forward

Unique and brilliant

Extraordinary ideas

Sharp thinking

Fine and strong feelings

Can become good doctors

Careful and cautious

Dynamic in personality

Secretive

Inquisitive

Knows how to dig secrets

Always thinking

Less talkative but amiable

Brave and generous

Patient

Stubborn and hard-hearted

If there is a will, there is a way.

Determined

Never give up

Hardly become angry unless provoked

Motivates oneself

Does not appreciates praises

High-spirited

Well-built and tough

Deep love

Here are some overdued photos :D

Extracted from hyperistic moments :3

Went high in the toilet with SUPERshad and cheng again :D

At YOG thingy :]

2009-05-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

b-ananacannibalism.
Sunday24May2009

If you miss me for not blogging the past few days.
Too bad :D I don't care a fucking shit about it xD
Hahaha, and yay!! Ifinally changed my link. Like it?
Yeah, i'm not posting for what had happened for the past few days.
It's too much to remember, so i'll just post out the more important things :]

Okay the main point that i MIA was because my mood was eff-ing bad..
It's sucky to the point my sis called me a "bitch" lieterally everyday, until now.
I really can't blame her, cause all i do is give her some fucked up attitude -.-
Honestly i still don't have much of the mood to post.
Blogging for the sake of blogging, cause well, i love this blog :D

School from wednesday to friday was all the same.
Wednesday after school had band, was sectionals almost all the way.
Thursday finally finished our napfa 5stations.
Yay for me, for getting a 178 for standing broad jump. Just nice an A :D
After school went to tamp with kai to buy tongue stud :]

Friday, did IPP and i had to seal the windows.
The stupidest part, was actually the not sticky muskin tape -.-
Because the tape was not strong enough the plastic keep falling?!
They said that we will still use all these materials if real toxic gas comes.
All i can say is, we don't stand a chance to live.
The tape is bull shit if we have to put our hope on that thing to protect us -.-

Went home straight after school.
Yesterday, woke up at 7. Left the house at 8.30 and headed to ubi.
Meet-up with cheng and headed to MBS.
Had curry mee while waiting for ling also.
It's been a long time since i saw ]: Missed her alot.
We chatted up till 11 then we went in to help.

Haha yay, Ms Wee came back from america!!!! Hahahaha.
Yeap, then help Aunty Mel to sort out the drummers scores -.-
Oh my gods, their scores is like pieces of shit lying in the racks :X No offence.
But managed to get everything done, with alil help form ling :3
After that, helped cheng carry her B.sax home and we went off to TM.
To huant for pressies :3 Took a fucking long time to find.
In the end was sort of a failure to get such a present ]: Went home at around 5 plus

Today, was suppose to go Marina square but was tired so
i stayed at home playing computer instead :]

So fed up with my thoughts of you.

Here are two movies that are highly recommened to watch.
Watched it in school, the teacher's recommendation :D

Left- Baby and me, a korean movie :]
Right-IP man, a guy who's kung fu is damn awesome :D

Some overdued photos :D

Th-random pics :]

Royce combing hair :D

Good bye Ms Loy D:

Can you see his teeny weeny head?
He's actually reading a book.

My bible for photography :D

2009-05-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

MIA

Just for awhile, hardly any positive energy left in me now.
Will post again/soon when the good side of my ego comes back.

2009-05-19T07:50:00.000-07:00

So vexed.

Tuesday19May2009

English- 54/100
Mathematics- 46/100
Chinese-36/100
Chemistry-26/50
Biology-25/50
Social Studies-19/50
Geography-33/40! :D
ART-90/100 !!! :DDD

Haha lol, i know it looks bad.
But.. my overall for midyear, all of my subjects should pass
except for chinese i think.. O_O My dad is so gonna strangle me D':
Finally we got all our results back :D
But, fuck.. i'm seriously lazy to go school z.z
he next whole week is like course all the way? Darn it -.-
All i can say is, today school was a bore!! nothing much happened.

After school, went to 110's mama shop bought red bull with kai.
Went to 108 accompany kai, cause she want to xxxxx..
Talked and slacked for awhile, i took bus 66 to MBS.
Boarded same bus with fat fat and dao yi.
Talked and this stupid JI-KOH-PEH was like looking at me D:
From throughout the whole journey he keep asking me to sit beside him. -'-

ER-XIN lah!! Then when fat fat and dao yi alighted.
I faster went to the back to sit, he bloody hell went to sit behind me.
FUCK sial this kind of people, if he anyhow..
I would take out my shoe and whack him dunno how many times -.-
Better yet, i'll take my pen knife out to threaten him. ROAR.
I comfirm that i'll treat him like a piece of shyt when i scold him -'-

Thank god the next stop was Ubi xD So alighted and took 61 to MBS :D
Reached there about 3.15, helped aunty mell to do some arraging of the scores.
When we finished she was over the moon ._. Scary..
Xing and cheng only made it at about 4.40. And practice already ended.
Right? My dears? :3 Yeah, they chatted with Mr Quek about the CBAS thingy.

Haha, i was super bored. Practically the mids of rotting xD

At last daddy came to fetch me at 5.30.

Went to parkway cause he needed to buy some electronic appliences.

I was there window shopping :D Bought strawberry ice-cream at Anderson's :D

Haha, i super love their ice-cream.

Guarenteed their ice-cream is alot better than Hagenn Daz xP

When he was done, went to aunt's house to pass her some stuff.

Headed home after that, reached home at 6 going 7 :3

What am i doing? I just can't stop thinking of the past.

Fafa, we'll always be here with you.

If you need to, cry your heart out. My shoulder is dry xD

And i'll taller :X It should a just nice for you to weep on.

Just remember you're not alone. Never think of suicidal alright?

Suicidal is never an answer..

2009-05-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

Still waiting for answers.

Monday18May2009

School was sorta fucked up today xD Like why the hell do i even

attend school today? No papers come back -.-

Even if they do, they would suck. Big time.

Seriously, now school in my eyes is like a piece of shit.

I have nothing to do there, and beside things are'nt going well D:

Okay, going on with the day already. Um, lessons were as usual.

All we did was going through out corrections and for social studies..

Mrs Quek took over clas as relief :D Miss her sooooo much :3

After school, slacked in canteen till 3.15 then headed to band :D

stupid darling shad pranked everyone with her fake LG mobile model.

She ar.. practically made everybody priceless face

flush down into the toilet bowl xD Typical shad :D

Oh yeah, we threw her phone into basketball hoops.

Like using her her fake phone as her basketball can?

In the end by the sectionals of band the phone was destroyed and

she continued to dismentle the cruddy phone xD

Yeap, for today's band prac.. we played ABBA ON BROADWAY all the way..

Was pretty boring today. Really it is ._.

But thank gof seak jing yi is there to make me laugh whenever :D

Haha he's so cuteee :X For a brother as in.

Yeah, but sad he may be tranferred to bass clarinet D:

I mean if he does who gonna crap with me whenever.

I mean Charmaine just got tranferred to 1st too.

Well, i just hope things will go on well after the holidays :D

So yeah, after band went home. Reached home at 7.

It's been a month now, i'm still waiting for some answers.

To my dearest Yao Xing;

Yes my dear, i'm not good with words in the face.

But what i wanted to say cheng already did.

I know, yes you feel like ending your life.

I've said it and not the first time. You are never alone.

You just gotta stand up an believe in yourself.

I know sometimes cheng and i have been neglecting you.

But you should know right down in your kuku kind heart that we still care for you :)

Like cheng said, i know you won't want to listen to us/ anyone. It's definately you.

You will always say the same thing like " I don't want to care anymore"

" I want to give up" " I can't take it anymore".

Where did my brave and dare daring yao xing ying go?

She use to be a strong independent and cute, The thang i love.

You used to be stronger than me and you always tell me to stand strong.

Then why can'st you just say that more to yourself and love yourself more?

Sometimes you just gotta think ahead and to see if things are worth it or not.

Sometimes you also gotta see the brighter side of life.

If your life is so bad that you wanna end it?.

Then ask yourself why are you in this world in the first place?

Because your parents wanted you, and if you want to end your life

What difference would it make if they lose a child? or not having one in the first place.

Like i said this afternoon, ending your life does not have any advantage AT ALL.

Look, since there are so many problems.

Your loved ones will then also have another problem which is you?

Already so many problems and you want to add on with such a heavy blow?

Not worth it right? I mean why not instead, live your life.

And just support your loved ones if they are in need.

They would know, at least you care for them and you love them.

Suicide is just running away from your problems and

adding more difficulties to the ones close to you.

There is no way that you can make things better with suicidal. Really.

Be more positive and things will get better, eventaully.

I mean what if you're not here?

What will happen to cheng and me? Your family? Lucas? God? Your friends?

Never think its the end of your life becasue there are too many problems.

Maybe somethings you just have to let go and move on.

And some, you just have to give in but if you think it's really that important.

Fight for your rights, by all means.

Listen and think through to what cheng and i said for once

We don't want you to be hurt ]: it's really heartbreaking.
I know there are many setbacks but dont always think you're alone.

Infact you are'nt, you have many more friends than me. You are more social.

Not like me, an anti-social ._. I don't want you to act happy but be really happy.

It really does suck living like a counterfeit.

2009-05-16T19:25:00.000-07:00

Mentally disoriented.

Sunday17May2009

Haha, it's 12.30 and i'm blogging now. Yeah wanted to blog earlier, but sis was using.
I'm gonna be totally shag tomorrow D:
Firstly, not much company.
Secondly, It's been exactly a month since ..
Thirdly, MY EXAM RESULTS!!!
Come on, my dad strangled me when i told him i failed math D: Literally.

Damn it, well life's like this. I think i should start off with my day by now :D
Woke up at 9.40plus, computered for awhile.
10plus went to katong for brunch, went to parkway settle a few thing then went home.
Continued with the computering :D Er.. then.. 6plus!!
Went out with parents and sis to VIVO!! :D Yeah, to have dinner.
Plus daddy had to go to some bookstore to help me buy this book.
It's about photography, and the book is really amazing!!
Also expensive, about 80bucks if i'm not wrong ._.
After eating out dinner, went to NewUrbanMales to buy slippers :D
Haha yay, i won't have to slip and fall again, at least for 3years i guess xD
10 plus went home, rached home at 10.30.

Totally lost with what i'm doing.

Found this quiz with cheng;

1. Real name : Lee Hung She
2. Nickname : Hung, Hulk?[ extracted from nicholas koh], fafa, sheshe -.-
3. Star sign : Scorpio.
4. Male or female : Female.
5. Primary school : MAHA BODHI SCHOOL :D.
6. Secondary school : Bedok Green Secondary School.
7. JC/POLY : I'm not even 15yet -.-
8. Hair color : Naturally brown with black.
9. Long or short : Long.
10 . Loud or Quiet : Depends
11. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
12. Phone or camera : Phone.
13. Health freak : Oh please. :D
14 . Drink or smoke : Drink lah.
15 . Do you have a crush on someone : I hope i won't, but soon ._.
16 .Eat or drink : Eat and Drink.
17 . Piercings : 5 and going 6 xP
18 . Tattoos : -NIL-.

Have You Ever ;
19. Been in an airplane : Yes.
20. Been in a relationship : Yeah.. Twice :D
21 . Been in a car accident : No
22 . Been in a fist fight : Almost.

Firsts ;
23. First piercing : Ears, 30Jan2002 :D Haha i still remember xD
24 . First best friend : Amanda cheng :D She's not in the country though ]:
25. First award : Forgot.
26 . First Crush : when i was 11 xD.
27 . First Vacation : HongKong

Last;
28 . Last person you talked to : Sister :D
29 . Last person you texted to : TanYong Xuan :D
30 . Last person(s) you watched a movie with : XingYing, HeeCheng & Lebrone.
32. Last food you ate : Passion fruit and mango ice-cream.
33 . Last movie you watched : 17again.
34 . Last song you listened to :Guarentee.
35 . Last thing you bought : My white havanas:D.
36 . Last person you hugged : Mak Si kei xP

Favourites ;
37 . Food : SUSHI!!!!
38. Drinks : Um alot,
39 . Clothing : Wthell, who has favorite for clothing? -.-
40 . Books : Hardly read.
41 . Song : SUPER MEGA ALOT/MANY.
42 . Flower : Carnation, it smells pretty.
43 . Colors : Black, Red, white, purple? :D
44 . Movies : Drama, romance and Comedy.
45 . Phrase : Holy shyt, fuck, bloody hell. Well alot more :D
46 . Subjects : ART!! and maths :)

You ever done before ;
47 . Kissed in the snow : No.
48 . Celebrated Halloween : No -.-
49. Had your heart broken : Duh, it is now :D
50 . Went over the minutes on your cell phone : Duh, haha.
51 . Someone questioned your sexual orientation : No.
52 : Came out of the closest : i was playing hide and seek
53 . Gotten pregnant : i will crack open your coconut brain :P
54 . Had an abortion : I abhor you, really.
55 . Done something you've regretted : Yes, and badly.
56 . Broke a promise : Um...yeah
57 . Hid a secret : Obvious much..
58 . Pretended to be happy : Countless of times.
59 . met someone who changed your life : Don't feel like mentioning
60 . Pretended to be sick : Did'nt felt like going to school last time ^^
61 . Left the country : Yes.
62. Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it : Yes. (:
63 . Cried over the silliest thing : Sometimes.
64 . Ran a mile : Stab me, please.
65 . Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : Many times :D
66 . Stay single the whole year : Yes(:

Currently ;
67 . Eating : Nope.
68. Drinking : Nope.
69. I'm about to : do the next question.
70 . Listening to : I don't care- fall out boys
71 . Plans for tomorrow : School? and band.
72 . Waiting for : Miracles.
73 . Want kids : Never thought of it yet
74. Want to get married : Definately.
75 . Careers in mind : Photographer

Which is better than Girl / Boy;
76 . Lips or eyes : Eyes.
77 . Shorter or taller : Taller.
78 . Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic.
79 . Nice stomach or nice arms : idk. stomach?
80. Sensitive or loud : Both :D
81 . Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.
82. Trouble-maker or hesistant : Trouble maker xD

Have you ever ;
83. Lost glasses/ contacts : No.
84. Ran away from home : No.
85. Hold a gun or knife for self defense : knife,
86 . Killed somebody : I still need to live in this world, hello?
87 . Broken someone's heart : Yes.
88 . Been arrested : No.
89. Cried when someone died : yes, my grandma.

Do you believe in ;

90 . yourself : Sometimes.
91. Miracles : I'm waiting for it..
92 . Love at first sight : You are crazy
93 . Heaven : No..
94 . Santa Claus :z.z
95 . Sex on the first date : I would be happy to help you knock your head until it bleed.
96 . Kiss on the first date : Um, no?
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now : Yeah D:
98 . Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : So-so
100 . This is the 100th & last question : Your last question is stupid.

2009-05-16T08:01:00.000-07:00

For all the right reasons.

Friday15May2009

Oh yeah, i'm back blogging my lovely readers :}

Nothing much happened, well until this morning -.-

Now i just feeling lousy, a loser infact. A failure as a friend.

Long story, not going to elaborate. It's too much to handle.

Um, went to ITE Collage east again. Again, not much has happened.

As usual, entertained myself by entertaining others in order to keep myself high :D

Let's see, we did some business and management thingy as some room.

We were suppose to re-decorate the stuff there and make it like a company.

That stupid chin-a bytch with hairy pits came critisizing me again.

I tell you, one more time she says she's perfect.. I will just fucking go bytch slap her.

Haha let's see if she will say she's perfect or not xD

Continuously, I managed to get a manicure. Well only my right hand.

My left hand.. i had to paint my own nails instead to kill time :P

After that was break, milo was given out.

Celine, Izzah Janelle and i went to canteen 2 to have a quick bite :D

Went back and meet-up with our group, had a look of the sports hall.

IT WAS HUGEEEEEEEE~ :} Freakingly large, they also have pool tables

somewhere in the building too.. Yeah i know, alot of thing there luh. xD

After that headed to the advanture park to have some team building games.

There was no time, so we had to do the low elements instead.

One of them was to fit as many people on this "table"

For our first try, only 16 people manage to sqeeze and then fall down xD

Then our second try was better :3

Eventually had 23 people was onboard of that "table". Including me :D

Alot people, and seriously smelly. the power of BODY ODOUR!! :X

After that, headed to the lecture theater to hear out some presentation.

But what the heck, no one was listening -.-

Finish the talk, headed back to school and i went home strait.

Reached home at 1.10 and i ended up sleeping till 6plus xD

Saturday16May2009

Woke up at 7.30, and headed to ubi 637 to meet-up with cheng :D

Reached there around 9-nine plus.. Dunno ? ._. But i went to her house first.

Left to maha bodhi soon, had curry plus veggie for breakfast.

Then joined in with the practice :D

Played March together, semoga bahagia and stand up for singapore.

After practice, there was a stupid heavy rain.

Stayed with Mr quek and chatted for awhile.

Oh ya that reminds me, he said the new MBS would have this concert hall.

And may conduct this concert there. It can hold up to 400people :D

For of course the MBS members and the alumnis of MBS band!! :D

HAHA, yay!! it's been awhile the seniors have performed with MBS.

Other stupid thing was, cheng and me realise MBS have choir -.-

We were totally shocked when there was choir prcatice ._.

Yeah after that, went to ubi again and accomapied cheng buy her school shoes.

And we bought EXTREME milo dinosaur, haha lol.It was near the new MBS :]

Headed to cheng's house slack for awhile.

Went home after that, reached home at 3.30 :D

When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away.

2009-05-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

But you feel so far away.

Thursday14May2009

Haha, today is so called 1st birthday of this blog?
Yeah, um anyway i think i'll be changing the blogskin soon.
Seeing this blogskin, makes me lousy at times.
It brings back, bittersweet memories ._.
Like this song i can't wait forever by simple plan really fits my mood now ]:

Today, had this ITE course and stuff.
Was pretty interesting but of course but boring at times -.-
Practically highed with celine all day.
Thanks to her blue umbrella her ah ma gave her x
It was my secret weapon to make us laugh hard :D
YAY for me, for making my friends laugh all day.

Made izzah, kai laugh because of celine's wonderful cooperation :D
Of course she was there laughing too :3
And of course i did'nt forget my beloved si kei and jessabel.
That part? Made them laughing hard by
hugging sikei real tight when ever i get to see her haha.

I went crazy today, cause i had to and needed to ]:
Was feeling lousy today, personal reasons D:
Really.. it does affect me in so many ways.
Had to entertain myself by entertaining others..
Over there, was so called harassed twice by guys studying there -.-
Okay, i shall not go into the details. it's pretty much stupid.

For today, nothing much is so interesting that i can really infer to.
So yeah, but there are photos :D We boarded the bus at 4.30.
And headed back to the school in awhile, not long..
Went home straight after that :D Reached home at 5.

I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns grey.

2009-05-13T08:54:00.000-07:00

You coming back was all that i ever wanted.

Tuesday12May2009

Hello people, back blogging. Well honestly, don't really feel like.

The headache is back huanting me -.- Fuck. Plus i can't be bothered too.

But for the sake of those people who would actually always read my blog..

I shall blog, but sorta of a rough post thats all.

Um, woke up at 7.30. Meet-up with shad, nabilah and jacq at 109's mama shop

at 8.30 sharp. But oh my god, our dear chair-man of our drama ma-ma club.

Seah Hee Cheng was late :D So we did'nt care,

instead we waited for her at the playground.

Slacked there while waiting. When she reached ,walked to school. On the way,

right ourside Red swastika, saw Madam Goh :D My p1 and 4 form teacher :3

I know such a small world, we exchanged numbers too :D

Amazingly she lives near by, haha.

Was.. half an hour late for the workshop only.

I know, i sound effortless. Well don't blame me, i was the only chinese girl

who actually bothered to give this workshop a show.

Practically i was alone for the whole thing. Please,

i can even say i was talking to the guys more -.- Haha but especially Shareen xD

After workshop, was at the foyer with xingying and Mr Lim and chatted for about

and hour and a half? Yeah, then L send us to the bus-stop.

Bused to xingying house, had maggie for lunch.

When she was having maths tution, was busy using the HP mini..

Okay practically the whole day, i was just there using the HP mini..

Had dinner there too, and yeah drank alot of her ice lemon tea.

At least.. 5-6packets of it ._. We also highed :D

HAHA, definately missed old times. Missed highing with her.

Should be spending more time with her cause she need company and

i realise we've been neglecting each other too, so yeah ]:

At last left her house at 8plus. Dad fetch me home, still reach home at 8plus :D

Wednesday13May2009

Know? I just suddenly want to stop going to school already.

Now, going to school is mostly useless. I go there just to entertain myself.

Because and why? Not much friends in class, more of a loner in class -.-"

Should be sleeping throughout almost every period after we go through every exam paper.

And yeah, for the sake of my parents, government and of course my dear friends :D

that is why i have to go school now -.-

Okay, but today obvious enough was just giving back our papers..

I will not blog out my marks until every piece of subject is returned.

But definately there is one that i cannot resist from saying. :D

I don't mean to brag but.. YAY! for me seriously.

I felt so happy for my results for the first time.

Ever in my life, this is the highest i've ever gotten

I am proud to say that

I GOT 90/100 for my ART exam!!!!! :D

YAY!YAY!YAY! Highest in class :3 Yeah, mine maybe the best.

But i still think it's not enough, i think my dear friend si kei and jessabel's research work

were bombs man. It's a killer shock, the most joyous kind of colours ever :D

Mr Muhammad is definately proud for our art class.

That's what he said, because throughout his teaching career in this school.

The sec 3NA have superb results :D Claps for us! He said

Everybody in the class scored well :DD And he hardly ever give marks

that were over 80. And our class made a new standard for the sec 3 ART students :3

Haha, i feel so happy for that.

But yeah the other subjects just pisses off just thinking about it.

I will not talk about it until next week i guess.

Going on, so after school rushed back home. And at first i thought

i could bathe and stuff then go to dentist appointment and medical checkup.

My mother fetched me to dentist immediatly when i got home -.-

My appointment was at first 4 and now 3._.

She had to work the last minute and therefore i need not have to go to

Thomson medical!! :D YAY! no x-ray.

She fetched me there and she left for work.

At mount E. obviously went to see dentist, changed to red and black :]

After appointment was still early was about 3.45 only.

Went to paragon's starbucks to slack and have a drink.

Bought Java chip and headed home :] Reached home at late 5.

I just can't keep my mind off of you.

2009-05-11T03:21:00.000-07:00

Scream.

Monday11May2009

Hey readers :] I know, i have'nt been blogging for awhile :D

Suddenly can't be bothered with this ._.

Well since seriously.. nothing much has been goin' on. What for blog?

I've been spending lonesome weekends plus today.

Not totally alone, feeling like a loser for some reason.

Cause i haven gone out to have fun since.. okay a very long time.

Um okay what about saying, i have not board the bus since thursday :D

When i was going back home with my sister. I know, unbelievable :/

Well haha too bad, believe it :D

Yeah, like i said. I feel different all of sudden. Like everything changed.

Alot of set backs and thinking that everything is falling apart from some stupid reason.

Even i know that i'm not facing of all this alone, it still feels like being alone.

Honestly i survived this weekend by having cheng coming over on

saturday afternoon to keep me company for awhile..

And Yong Xuan has been messaging me to keep me company.

Haha thanks by the way, throughout the whole weekend i rot at home.

Watching mindless moving pictures in a box. Both the tv and the computer -.-

I'm not in a good mood when having outings with my family.

Here and there, i just argue with my folks.

For example, so called i "pissed" my dad off on saturday night.

He even complaint about me infront of my mum -.- IN CANTONESE!!

Please lah, it's not like i don't understand what the fuck they are saying.

I've been listening to them talk in different languages since young.

Oh my god, it is so damn obvious -.-"

Why not just say in chinese? Has no difference.

It's not like i don't understand anything they say.

And today, mum got pissed off my me. Well thats what she said._.

Yeap, parent~ hypocrites at times. Well mostly..

I don't really care about it now -,- All i want is silence other than music of course.

Some peace and quiet was all i wanted, why can't they just do that.

Even my brother agrees with me ._. My sister talks alot, lips that never stop.

Now i'm not even sure what i am blogging in the first place z.z

Also bondings between friends also changed ]:

We don't spent as much time for each other as we use too D:

Although i'm mostly and already use to this kind of enviroment.

I loathe this feeling of losing what we already have.

I even had an asthma attack last night o_o, sorry i know, it's random.

But for now all that matters inside is that [B] is safe :]

I guess he went back, i think.. Aw man, it's so obvious i'm not over him.

Instead, it feels like i'm still watching him. Well not literally.

In another way by still knowing what he might be doing.

Yeah, pretty lonesome. Sometimes at night i think of alot things.

But to hell with it, it's not here already.

It's been a bust recently and still standing strong :D

But yeah, in a bad mood recently and still am.

Like i said, i'm kinda in a mood that i don't want anything.

Even for the celebration of my birthday this year, i do not mind :]

Lost alot, even my appetite. Don't eat much now a days. Thanks to my sickness -.-"

To people: Do what you do best :D Your thing. I'll still joke around, being blur and all.

Mostly needing some peace and quiet for awhile.

I'm me and still me, will be there when my friends need me ^^ Promise. ♥

One last thing,~

Happy mothers' day to all mothers in the world. :]

Made a boquet of ferrero rocher roses for mommy, hope she will not destroy it.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down.

2009-05-08T03:45:00.000-07:00

Damn.

Thursday07May2009

Yes i made it! :D I made it till 5am in the morning chionging my art prep :3

But to hell with it i woke up 40minutes late z.z Too tired i guess,

must be also that medicine that made me drowsy xD

So made it to school just on time :]

Haha yay, the school decided to stop taking temperatures already :D

At 8, had art paper at the humanities room. YAY! it's my last paper ^^

Thank goodness i drew finish all 4 sketches on time :D

At first i thought i could'nt finish D: Was really limited time.

In 3hours, we have to draw 4 bottles in pencil shading.

Still i think i sucked at the actual examination,

i still loved the pieces in my preperation better D:

Still, i hope to get A1 or an A2 for my art ^^

After exam went to canteen, lunched with jess, sikei and shimian.

Soon xing came, all lunched together :D

Later, cheng came and sadly i had to go. Cause sis was waiting for me at 109 -.-

She ended school early and wanna go home together.

So went to look for her, and we headed home together :D

Reached home at late 12, watched tv till slept and woke up at 5.

Did nothing much after that. Haha, but again i slept super duper early which was 8.

Halfway sleeping at 10.47pm, someone unexpected called me ._.

and you know, i think something bad just happened.

Friday08May2009

Late 9 woke up. Whooooots, if i'm correct i slept for

19hours altogether since yesterday afternoon :3 HAHA, hurray for me :D

Anw, today was a bust. Did nothing but computer all day.

Well not long later today, just realize something bad really did happen D:

Oh yeah did a quiz on "How nice are you". And it says.

You're nice when you want to be.

When you're having a good time, you're not going to let anyone get in the way.

You're not afraid to say what is on your mind,

but you will help out certain people if you believe they really need it.

Haha lol and i totally agree :D

Must you always leave something behind to make me feel insecure.

Even if we're not together already you just have to find some way

to get attention. Now your missing, you did'nt attend for your paper.

Yesterday and today. Even your brother called me just to ask

wether you attended school or not. If you think it's a game, well it's not funny.

just to think i can finally get over it in another few more steps.

But you just have to do something, everyone wants to know whats up in your mind.

Until now, i'm still waiting for the truth. You think playing missing helps you,

it's not your just running from your problems.

Look if you just have any troubles why can't you just say it out.

Bottling it all up ain't doing you any good. If you know what's good for yourself,

GO HOME for god sake.. -.-v Making yourself missing just makes

the people who cares and love you worry sick for you because of your

own selfish needs. You don't tell anyone anything,

and i think you yourself know that you can't do it alone.

Stop telling me that because of your ego you do all sorts of stupid things to yourself.

You are just hurting yourself from the core of your internal self ]:

Look, if you think this is best for you.

All i can say, you are wrong plenty of people out there care for you.

To think i can stop crying over you already, and now this.

Stop it! It's killing me. Stop haunting me with your consistance stupid actions.

Now, you're making me worried, too worried that i'm the verge of breaking down.

Must you always make me worry to the point that

i would do anything just to look for you?

2009-05-06T02:06:00.001-07:00

Sick.

Wednesday06May2009

Hey readers, came back blogging with swine flu~ syntoms!! :D
Alright, i'm just joking here. But seriously speaking, i am sick.
I know, sian. Shall be bloggering about it later on.

Today had Maths paper 2 and Biology paper.
Well one word for maths is "Die" So gonna flunck maths paper 2 luh.
Hais, it's kinda difficult ._. But only left 4questions[8marks] blank.
Recessed with clique, ate but not much. Thanks to my damn ulcer -.-
Lost my appetite also, so its okay.

Biology paper.. was amazingly easy!! :D Well i can't say its too easy,
later maybe it's a unseen living death trap. Haha.
The paper is 1hour15mins, it took me only 30minutes to do.
The rest of the time i was sleeping, slept till the paper was over. Yeah..
At least it's still managable, i did'nt listen to teacher much during school thats why ]:
Now, i swear i have to.. At least after the june holidays.
By then i think i should got over it :3

After the papers, headed to canteen slacked for about half an hour.
Soon headed home, showered, changed and took bus to siglap to see doctor z.z
Waited for damn fucking long time -.- Waited for about an hour an a half -'-
Had a nap there instead also, well the doctor said.
I have soar throat that may lead to throat infection, blocked nose,
flu and a slight fever T.T I know, like what the hell you guys just saw me
super fine a few days ago. But too bad, i'm here now and sick.

Thank god tomorrow is my last paper, and fuck.
I cannot sleep tonight, i must and i have to.
It's the only way to save my butt from being fried by Mr muhammad.
If i never finish my research, i can kiss good bye to my A1/2 for my art D:
I really like to have an A1 for once too you know?
Okay i shall stop from here :] Chionging for my art :X

Why do i still miss you like crazy ]:

2009-05-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

Why bother waiting,

he's never calling back.

Tuesday05May2009

Had geography elective and chemistry paper today.

Was shocked when i turned the geography paper.

Lucky enough, it was still managable :D Was also able to fill in every question

in the paper, YAY ME!! Even although.. There's 2particular questions about floodplains..

I just scribbled whatever crap that came into my mind.

Chemistry was so-so, maybe i could just fail by a few marks

cause i did not even do revision or maybe i would just make it at the passing mark.

Well it depends (: After chem, lunched with xingying and eileen.

And was almost late for the mother tongue listening comprehension.

Lol okay, whatever. Wait, why the hell did i say that for.

Argh nevermind, okay continue again.

Listening comprehension.. Finished went to wait for xingying to dismiss :D

Headed to canteen to look for jeanette, highed with shad and cheng again.

Soon, went off to 85market there eat prata with xingying and jeanette.

Ate, chatted, laughed and we all headed to our own ways later on.

Rushed home, got ready and everything. Mother fetched me to tution

and yay for me, i was 15minutes late :D Tutioned and for no reason,

i had no heart to study and i felt stupid for a moment like my mind just gone blank.

After tution, mother came to fetch and we headed to bedok inter

to help with her stuff -.- Argh weird, she was actually nice to me ._.

Really akward cause we argued when she fecthed me to tution z.z

Holy shyt! This ulcer on my tongue is killing the shyt out of me T.T

I can't even have a nice decent meal and even drinking cold water hurts like fuck -.-

I know :/ And i already have soar throat and block nose.

I wander how am i gonna survive tomorrow night when i will not be sleeping

as i will be chionging for art exam haha. Tired.

Gonna K.O. after my art paper when get home xD

Do you feel the same way like i do?

2009-05-04T00:46:00.000-07:00

Goodness gracious, who did that?

Monday04May2009

Hey dudes and dude-eds :D Haha yay to for not posting yesterday.

First there was nothing to post at all.

Secondly, my sister was using the computer to do some essay on

havaianas and crocs -.- Yeah i know what a stupid assignment to work on.

Poor sap, her butt was sitting on this very chair that i'm sitting for more than

15hours. From 12 in the afternoon till today morning 6am. Crazy.

When i woke up and saw her still typing,

i was not shocked, yet it was more of a 'Um.. okay?'

Weird huh? Anyway, today had Maths paper 1 and Social studies.

Maths was freaking easy but missed out 2questions that were on factorisation -.-

And of course, i have some here and there careless mistakes.

Recess was nothing much but highed with shad, cheng and nabilah again.

For social studies let's see, i don't really know wether i would flunk or not.

Cause i really wrote alot ._. Alot to the point that question 1(d) I wrote

22lines and people who know me.. you know how bite size are my words right? xD

Haha but idoit, because if that question it really took out of my time.

At least 20minutes left to do the rest.

The worst is that, that the question only cost 8marks?

So section B, obviously did'nt leave blank. And when i knew what to write,

my hand/fingers keep cramping ._." Ouch, thanks to the stupid 1(d).

After papers, lunched with xingying. Soon went to art room to ask

Ms shahirah somethings for art exams.

About 15minutes later, left with cheng and leb to backgate.

From there we headed our own ways, bus-ed home with jeanette :)

reached home at about 2.10 :D

Well i guess why some people think that i'm blogging so early today :D

It's because i'm gonna study geography until dinner.

After dinner should be doing art again and then some last minute revision.

Well of course doing infront on the computer with the music on. Haha.

Even if it makes my heart weaker everytime i see you,

i'm starting to get over you.

2009-05-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

Critically ashamed.

Saturday02May2009

Argh, damn it. i'm really bored and i don't have to study at all -.-"

Should be editing mostly everything in this blog when this blog is 1years old..

Which is a few weeks later, and i'm savin up money

to go out with alot of people that i promised to.

Also have to design the class-T next week end :D YAY!

Last of all, have to draw a plan to get my new room done by june or july.

Like finally getting a new room and i'm gonna paint it maroon woohoo~!!

Okay i'll get on with the posting, woke up at 8plus this morning.

Practically wasted another day by watching tv and computering.

Yeah okay snuck out the house with sis to tam1 for awhile.

Then wanted to go celine house to get my textbook back but she was'nt at home TT

Okay i shall not exaggerating the matter, right celine? :3

Reached home at 3 and computered all way till 7plus chatting.

Never ever so long we an chat for like 4hours, and i feel so loved by so many people :D

Okay crapping. Um, yeah then dolled up went to centre point with family

to eat dinner at some taiwan restaurant z.z

Ate, came back home, reached at 10.20.

Aw man, the guilt is eating up my insides

until there's nothing left.

2009-05-01T09:20:00.000-07:00

Missing of what used to be.

Friday01May2009

Holy shyt!! It's the first of may already. Um, happy labour day?

This is weird, weird because i'm so fucked up now yet i'm still blogging -.-

Told you it was weird, i thinkin the post i'll be most likely to curse and swear.

Anyway, woke up at 11. Practically watched tv the whole day

when i'm suppose to do my art xD Okay i blame the weather though.

It gave me a headache that just won't go away "again" literally.

Just finished helping my brother clean up his bbq with his friends.

Haha sorta fun to talk to them, well but sad my brother did'nt allow me to drink

cause he said there was'nt enough. I tell ya, it's a lie!! Screw his arse i tell ya!!

Okay i'm really really fucked up now and there are one or two logical explainations for it.

Like i said, pass me my textbook or you are just being selfish

because you're making me burn mid night oil for my paper.

Next, other thing i wanna curse on is "him". I don't know why, but just Mad..

That's all, can't help it and the sudden urge to bytch slap him -,-

Yeah i know mean. But yeah it's me, just spend the night smsing yx again.

At least he keeps me company now a days :] Thanks.

Damn it, just feeling so fucked up all of a sudden.

2009-04-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

Was deprived

but i now concern for another.

Thursday30April2009

Oh no! I grew fatter ._. Gained weight,

i blame my cousin's wedding for making me have appetite since then -.-

Okay must control on the junkfood that my parents tempt me from :3

Today had our chinese paper, and i'm prepared to fail. But not badly,

because i did something wrong during paper 2 :X

At first i feel that it was okay but guilt is slowly eating up the insides of me.

Hell with it already, i'll get over it -.-

Also, i'm back to my emo self -.- Sorry peeps, tempted by my penknife.

Compo and letter writining.. Yeah, garenteed to die.

Paper 2 i bloody hell don't even understand about the passage -.-

All i know that it has something to do with roses ._.

Man! i feel specially stupid when it comes to chinese. Damn.

Anyway, so after tha paper. Accompanied xing eating lunch,

when she left for maths remedial, cheng, shad jacq and i started to go high again.

For awhile, was'nt long. But at last cheng and i left at 1.40plus.

Ended up reaching home at about 2.15, watched tv, used computer

and eventually bathe and stuff got ready at 4.15 left the house.

Took bus 14 to katong for tution, haha and finally for 3months this year.

I ain't late :D Did revision, not much crapping again.

Tution was over, father came to fetch me.

From there headed to fetch bro and sis, and we went on to sentosa!! :D

Went there to have family dinner, as in with my cousin, aunts and uncles.

Not much fun there, but chatted with a few peeps and yay got to drink again ^^

Cause daddy allowed, yippee~ Okay, the food is great but not fantastic and so on.

At about 9.45 we left, reached home at 10plus. And one more shoutout for.......

Bytch! Make her cry like someone died again and you die.

I'm worried of doing the same mistake again.

2009-04-29T04:27:00.000-07:00

Afraid.

Wednesday29April2009

Woohoo~! :D Had english paper today, and still i feel nothing..

Yeah, i know. I'm hopeless to the end for making me feel like it's exams xD

English paper 1- Composition and newsletter.

Did question 5. for composition, it was about what we treasure in our family -.-

Break/recess with clique and people you owe me money..

At about 10.15 went back to class for paper 2.

Paper 2 ain't that difficult at all, for the first time the comprehension was

so easy to the point where only out of twenty something questions.

Only did'nt know how to do two :D I mean how great was that.

Sadly, my summary is gonna pull my whole paper badly.

Because, they told us to find evidence when there were barely even four.

Yesh, i know.. BYTCH!! And the setter of our paper is none other than

3N1's form teacher, Mrs Bhaskaran -.-

Anyway, after exams ate lunch with sikei, jess and shimian.

After eating, sikei came to my house to study.

Taught her maths, at about 3.45 send her off at tanah merah.

Wanted to just walk straight home but was suddenly drawn to the playground

to enterain myself again, took alittle breather, slacked there until 4plus went home.

Reached home at 4.40. Haha yay, i'm so gonna flunck my chinese paper xP

May seem happy that i'm about failing paper but..

everytime on the spot of the paper my tummy would hurt real bad

that i would have diarrhea -.- Okay sorry too much information.

But it's true, whenever i'm nervous i'm like this z.z

B, you won't be showing up tomorrow are'nt you. I'll just have to bear with it.
Bearing the lonely times for 4days.

Many times i've said, still waiting for the truth and it's just the matter of time

that i'll really get over you. At least now i feel happier that i didnt hold the past back.

Starting to move on but seeing the teddy you gave with love just breaks my heart.

It's like a hugging a fluffy cloud and it's the nicest soft toy i've ever got since i was born.

But hugging it, just naturally just break my heart into a thousand pieces, leavin' it sour.

Yeah, i may be hopeless. But afraid that i'll fall for ... ._.

Just wanting the truth and thats all i wanted. Is it that hard?

Take a breath, i'll pull myself together.

2009-04-28T03:21:00.000-07:00

Distressed.

Tuesday28April2009

Oh my goodness, its the most unbelievable thing that has happened to me o_o

I slept at 7.30 last night and woke up this morning 6am :D it's like WOAH! i know..

Was really exhausted last night, anyway.. shall start posting.

School today was boring yet.. how to praise it..

Well as normal as it should, just that my bag is freaking heavy today z.z

Chinese, mr fun went through the format for the letter writing and

was talking to janelle most of the lesson.

Maths, went through revision paper. Geography.. haha yay..

We got back our common test paper, like finally. I passed!!

YAY!! 12/20 haha yesh it's kinda of a border line but it's better than a failing grade.

Recess, went to look for ms loy.

She passed me notes to give out then mr azhar came by

and also passed me notes to give out too. z.z Oh my gosh..

Still recess with clique, went to technology for biology class.

Then chemistry, well nothing much to add on in these two lessons.

Lunched with clique, had english lesson after that.

After school headed to bus-stop, waited for super long ._.

So bus-ed to tution, was practically freezing again in the bus -.-

Tutioned, did revision. At 5 dismissed, bused home. Reached home at 5.45.

Tomorrow is our english paper already and i've yet to feel nervous.

I'm still somehow stuck in the holiday mood.

Oh no, for this i'm worries instead, i should revise my work more then z.z

Afraid to be stabbed in the heart again.

2009-04-27T03:41:00.000-07:00

Willingly to endure.

Monday27April2009

Hoho :D Hey reader's surpisingly i'm happy today.

Yeah, i know finding it odd.. I mean it's difficult to find a day that i said it.

Let's seeeee, um art.. Mr Muhammad had us starting our research for our paper.

So we sketched, drawed and blah blah blah.

Recessed with clique, Went to technology room with celine for maths class.

I don't why but during the 4period, maths and english i was totally high.

Even though i could just sleep just any second by just closing my eyes.

I just kept laughing with celine and crapped alot.

But after lesson things started to piss me off.

Waited in the canteen during lunch for like 15-20minues and no one showed up.

I felt stupid for sitting alone in rows of empty tables,

so headed to classroom looked for celine, kai, shirleen and izzah.

Chatted a little in the converstions and things started to go wild in the class.

They as in "they" trashed the classroom by

throwing books,tables and chairs everywhere, literally.

There's no different then having a riot in class ._.

Had social studies and went to canteen with xingying and heecheng.

cheng wanted to so close by john mclaughlin for me on the piano.

BUT SHE FAILED!! SHE FORGOT!! so as a friend, i'll just say jia you :D

Slacked as they ate their lunch, um not much to say.

I continued doing my maths revision paper and my art research.

At about 3.40 left, Reached home at 4plus.

It's exactly one month to your special day [b],

and i'm still thinking wether i should do something.

Starting to move on, but it's still difficult to not love you.

Well it's just the matter of time.

Simply, just livin' like a counterfeit.

2009-04-26T08:53:00.000-07:00

Everything just gets worse.

Sunday26April2009

OH MY GOD!! :D haha okay, i just got home about half an hour ago?

And now is 11.55? Yeah. I don't know why the hell am i so awake now ._.

Stupid moodswings -,- It even pisses myself off.

Okay i shall blog today and its a super big day for my cousin :D

Well, it's her wedding today!! :D YAY sim.

Despite hating her for showing off and stuff and treating me like a kid.

She's alright, practically she teared throughout her speech today during the dinner.

Today woke up at 9.30, dolled up left at 10.15 with parents and sis

to wedding reception at some hotel. But its obvious around orchard area :D

So ya, had lunch there and the phototaking was so damn hilarious.

Will upload asap after getting it :D

After that, went to parkway to walk for awhile then went home.

Cause Menfred[sis boyf] came to our house for some.. um.

Okay it's their thing, i should'nt care, but.. can't help but say.

Their so cute :3 Althought they keep arguing and stuff that

i feel like chopping their heads off. But when they are nice, they are nice.

At 5.15 i started to prepare and doll up and stuff already ._.

I know, what the fcuk like so early when i have to only leave at 6.15 xD

But at last we left at 6.30 instead, i blame my sister actually.

She does things the last minutes, freaking irritating.

When she's pissed in a bad mood she gives me some fuck up attitude.

Today evening we lead into a quarrel -.- She's literally crazy.

But it soon turned out okay while having dishes, one other problem.

She just keeps talking ._. She just continuously goes on and on z.z

All i can do is, see her mouth move all the time listening to "blah blah blah".

and constantly having to remind her to shut up z.z

Oh crap, i changed points again x3 Okay, so at the dinner..

Food was average for a restaurant. But!! the crowd is so enthusiastic.

They was even dancing but of course i did'nt leave my seat -.-

The cutest part is my fat uncle doing funny movements while dancing.

Also seeing my parents dancing for the very first time in my boring life xD

It's so funny i have to say, all starts well and ends well.

Got a whole family photo and left for home :)

Yeah like i said reached home at 11.25 ;D

Mid-Year Exams Schedule :

29th April - English Language Paper 1 & 2

30th April - Mother Tongue Paper 1 & 2

4th May - Mathematics Paper 1 & Social Studies

5th May - Geography Elective, Science(Chemistry), Mother Tongue Paper 3

6th May - Mathematics Paper 2, Science(Biology)

7th May - Art paper 2

Yeah, hungshe.. Perservere! :D

Oh my goodness, what's happening to everyone nowadays?

It's like bad luck stuck everybody that i know this very moment.

Even myself, having hard time to aim for my goals ]:

People, having breakups, having family/friendship problems.

it's really been hard for everybody these days. DARN HUMANITY!!

Every night, i would wish for things to be as it use to.

2009-04-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

Ain't the only one.

Saturday25April2009

Okay? This feels weird, i'm actually blogging cause i have some say

and for the sake of blogging z.z For my 2nd sentence of this post,

i woke up at 10.45 thanks to celine and her miss call -.-

For the rest of the day, watch tv and surfing the net.

Yesh it's pretty boring and was suppose to do art research.

But i did'nt ._. I blame the fucked up hot wether.

Come on? It made a headache that does'nt go away D: Till now of course.

Obviously i'm still surfing the net and stuff, but at the mean time..

I'm just waiting for some truthful answers :)

And damn, my dad bought a whole box of Heineken and i can't seem to find it.

Oh darn it, i have been hunting it for about a month now.

It pisses me off so bad when i feel like drinking but

you don't even know where the hell is it? z.z

And crap, i'm so garenteed to lose my voice.

At home, i already have a sister with throat infection and other one

in school who has soarthroat. The best part is, they both lost their voices.

So there, i'm happy for those who detests, curse at me :D

Great, tomorrow night i'm going to my cousin's wedding.

Gotta doll up again, bleah. Waste of time,

and i gonna get pumped by my cousin, oh no.. xD

Other point, which is very important to my dear friend is that..

I know you're having a hard time handling all the truths and stuff.

Like i've said, i know how you feel. Remember that totally screwed up

post i blogged 2weeks ago on a thursday?

Yes, it's hard. It feels like you wanna throw up and ending your life.

Thinking life is nothing to do with you anymore.

I have been tolerating for about 2-3 months literally.

I knew everybody changed, i quarelled with my parents every single day.

I started to hate all of us, maybe even you. There's a possibility.

Maybe things turn out to suck, but you can't just give up.

You can't just thinking everything is an end.

Also, maybe i changed is because.. you know? Things did'nt turn out right for me.

I know you're not in a good mood for anything.

Because i wanted to talk to you but you said you did'nt wanted to care.

I know inside you're still struggling, i know you're thinking everybody is

leaving you and stuff and they don't care about your feelings.

Well thats not true :) I may be freaking out on the outside,

but inside my heart aches seeing you to be in a bad mood, it sucks.

And i'm still having a little bit of agony stuck in me.

That is why you have to see things the other way around.

Well thats what i'm doing now. You're not the only that is always alone.

I too also am alone most of the time. But now you see me laughing

where ever i go. Because i realise, you can't just wait for anyone

to just approache you and do something. Sometimes, you gotta

stand up and do something for yourself :)

I use to think you changed too, thinking that all that you did'nt care

how i felt after teasing me badly and not care but still laugh.

Thinking that you can't even different shape me giving a fake smile.

You always having to spend time with your dearest.

I don't know what else i can say anymore, but i'm just saying.

You're not facing these crisis on your own :)

I've really fallen for you,

it's just so hard for me to get you outta my system.